London (England) -- Fiction; Love stories; Mystery fiction
"Getting on!" he repeated wearily. "Yes, and that's about all. My work
lies in London. I'm not fitted for a country parson, because I can't be
idle. I feel as if I must be always energetic; and too much energy on
the part of a country curate generally causes his vicar annoyance. Many
vicars think energy undignified."
"But, my dear fellow," I exclaimed, "if you're not well--and I see
you're not well by your face and manner--why don't you take things
easily? You need not kill yourself, surely! London seems to have a
remarkable attraction for you. Surely life is much healthier here."
"Yes, you're right," he answered in a clear voice. "There is an
attraction for me in London," and he looked into my face with a curious
expression.
"An attraction outside your work?" I suggested. He hesitated. Then,
suddenly, he answered--
"Yes. Why need I conceal it from you, Clifton? It is a woman."
"And you are in love?" I exclaimed.
"Yes," he responded, in a low tone. "But, hush! Not so loud. No one
must know it here."
"Of course not. If you wish, it shall remain a secret with me," I said.
"Are you engaged?"
"Oh no!" he exclaimed. "I love her, but have not yet spoken. I will
tell you the truth; then you can advise me," and he paused. At last,
continuing, he said: "When I joined the Church I made a solemn vow to
God of celibacy; not because I hated women, but because I considered
that my work, if done conscientiously, as I intended to do it, should be
my sole thought. Mine is perhaps a rather extreme view, but I cannot
think that a man can work for his Master with that thoroughness if he
has a woman to love and cherish as when he is a bachelor and alone.
Some may say that woman's influence upon man is softening and
humanising; but I hold that the man who is single can apply himself more
devoutly to his fellow-creatures than he who has home ties and family
affairs. Well, I took Holy Orders and set myself to work. I know I am
not a brilliant preacher, nor have I that gift of self-advertisement
which some men cultivate by lecturing with limelight views; but I do
know that I strove to act as servant to the Master I had elected to
serve, and the thanks of the grateful poor and the knowledge that more
than one person had been brought to repentance by my words, were more
than sufficient repayment for my efforts. Time went on, and I became
deeply absorbed in my work in those foetid slums, until one day I
chanced to meet a woman who in an instant entranced me by her beauty.
She gave me but a passing glance, but her eyes kindled in my soul the
fire of love. We men are, indeed, frail creatures, for in a moment all
my good resolutions fell to the ground, and I felt myself devoted to
her. We met again, and again. I admired her. I saw how beautiful she
was, and then found myself thinking more of her than of the Master whom
I was serving. True it is, as it is written, `No man can serve two
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