"Love--what you call sex--that is one of the things which has frightened you the most of any. Somebody has put black thoughts into that head. Yes, I tell you it is so. A terrible thing has been done to you. Somebody has brought you up carefully." But in an instant she had come across the room to him and had a protecting arm about him. "Now I have made you the more sad. You must tell me what it is." "I can't, Maria. I don't know whether I know. But anyhow I can't." "Perhaps it is the sound of it which you fear. You tell me. You must. Whisper it." Peter did whisper. "You remember that night you told me---- you told me about the others." "You mean those oh so few lovers. But that did not make you sad then. You were not angry." "I'm not angry now. But I can't help it, Maria, that I worry." "And for what do you worry?" "I think that maybe those other lovers they made you happier than I can." "So! That I should have known. You think you are not the so great lover. These men they are gone but they are still your rivals. Perhaps I remember. That is it?" "Yes," said Peter. He was startled when Maria laughed. "Why do you laugh at me?" "It is to you like the baseball game. It is what you call it? Oh yes, a competition." Peter made no answer. "Now listen to me, Peter. You I love the most of anybody in the world. I tell you that but it is not enough. You still worry. Something I must do to show you. This blackness I must drive away. Peter, you must have a baby. Yes, it is a son you need. Then you can worry about him." Maria spoke upon the conviction but also upon impulse and babies are not born that way. The time of her trial beat fiercely upon her. She had to quit the show just a day after a new rôle and several new songs were promised to her. During the last three months of her pregnancy she never left the apartment. "I do not want anybody to point at me," she told Peter, "and say that is Maria Algarez who did the Butterfly Dance in 'Adios.'" * * * * * In the note which Dr. Clay handed to Peter, Maria had written: "I did keep my promise. It is a baby and a son. That was all I promised. More I cannot do. Peter, I must be Maria Algarez, the dancer. I cannot be the wife and the mother. You should not be sad altogether. I think it is good that we have met. When you look at your son you will forget some of the rubbish that was in your head. That is more than that you should remember Maria Algarez. And the boy, Peter, remember it is fair that from life he should get fun. Thank God, nobody can ever make of him the wife and mother. Miss Haine says he is like me. If that is so, Peter, you may have much trouble. But leave him just a little bad." The last sentence was hard to decipher. Peter could not make out whether Maria had written, "I love you," or "I loved you." II