American fiction -- 20th century; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Journalists -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction
“Not a hectic, experimental kind of existence,” he said.
“I don’t?”
“No. Not for yourself. You may want to be that sort of person to please
Clive. But _you_ don’t want it. You want—I’ll tell you what you want.”
He spoke confidently. “It’s very simple. You want a husband, and
children, and a home, and you want to stay there—you want to be _made_
to stay there.”
She stirred restlessly, and seemed about to speak, but he motioned her
abruptly to keep still, and went on authoritatively. “Oh, don’t deny it.
You want somebody to take you in charge—some one in whom you really
believe, that you can really depend upon, somebody who can boss the job.
Don’t you!” he finished rather imperiously.
She smiled at him quizzically, and then said, “Yes. Maybe I do. How did
you guess?”
“I knew,” he said.
“Well, don’t tell anybody that I’m such a ridiculous person!” she said.
And suddenly she slipped down from the bed to the floor, and put her arm
across his knees, and laid her head against it, without speaking. After
a while she looked up, and asked timidly, “Do you mind? I wanted to.”
3
Felix caressed her shoulder with his hand, lightly—feeling in some queer
way that she was a child and that he was some infinitely older and wiser
person.
They sat there a long time, she with her head resting against his knee,
and he with his hand touching her shoulder. At last she took his other
hand and held it against her face, with an apparently unconscious and
instinctive gesture, as if she were in truth a child. He had a deep
conviction that this was not love-making in any ordinary sense. There
was some blessed healing in these contacts for them both—that was all.
Yes—for him, too. For as he bent over her, with his hand nourished
against her cheek, he seemed to be finding rest, finding some quiet
peace which his spirit needed. This touch was enough. It was balm for a
weariness of which he had not been aware. It was rest, it was peace, it
was his dream of her come true.
She lifted her head at last, like some one who has waked from a
refreshing sleep. “You are very good to me,” she said, and rose up.
He stood up, suddenly conscious of how long they had been together, and
wondered what time it was.
She glanced at her clock on the mantel, and his look followed hers. It
was three o’clock.
“Gracious!” she whispered.
He started to walk across the floor, and a board creaked; he finished
the journey to his door on tiptoe, half ashamed and angry at taking such
a precaution. It gave an air of the illicit to the occasion. At the door
he turned.
She had remained standing beside his chair. He could not shake hands
with her without going back. But why was he hurrying away in such a
frightened manner, as if he had done something wrong? He recrossed the
room and held out his hand.
“Good night, Phyllis.”
“Good night, Felix Fay.”
He walked boldly back to his own room, and closed the door with a
defiant bang.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account