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The Marquesa came in and sat down at the table. "I can do no more. What
will be, will be," she whispered. She unbound from her neck the amulets
of her superstition and dropped them into the glowing brazier. She had a
strange sense of having antagonized God by too much prayer and so
addressed Him now obliquely. "After all it is in the hands of another. I
no longer claim the least influence. What will be, will be." She sat for
a long time, her palms against her cheeks, making a blank of her mind.
Her eyes fell on Pepita's letter. She opened it mechanically and started
to read. She had read a full half of it before her attention was aware
of the meaning of the words: "... _but all this is nothing if you like
me and wish me to stay with her. I oughtn't to tell you but every now
and then the bad chambermaids lock me up in rooms and steal things and
perhaps My Lady will think that I steal them. I hope not. I hope you are
well and not having any trouble in the hospital or anywhere. Though I
never see you I think of you all the time and I remember what you told
me, my dear mother in God. I want to do only what you want, but if you
could let me come back for a few days to the convent, but not if you do
not wish it. But I am so much alone and not talking to anyone, and
everything. Sometimes I do not know whether you have forgotten me and if
you could find a minute to write me a little letter or something, I
could keep it, but I know how busy you are_...."
Doña María read no further. She folded the letter and put it aside.
For a moment she was filled with envy: she longed to command another's
soul as completely as this nun was able to do. Most of all she longed to
be back in this simplicity of love, to throw off the burden of pride and
vanity that hers had always carried. To quiet the tumult in her mind she
picked up a book of devotion and tried to fix her attention upon the
words. But after a moment she suddenly felt the need to reread the whole
letter, to surprise, if possible, the secret of so much felicity.
Pepita returned bringing the supper in her hands, followed by a maid.
Doña María watched her over the top of her book as she would have
watched a visitor from Heaven. Pepita tiptoed about the room laying the
table and whispering directions to her assistant.
"Your supper is ready, My Lady," she said at last.
"But, my child, you are going to eat with me?" In Lima Pepita generally
sat down at the table with her mistress.
"I thought you would be tired, My Lady. I had my supper downstairs."
"She does not wish to eat with me," thought the Marquesa. "She knows me
and has rejected me."
"Would you like me to read aloud to you while you are eating, My Lady?"
asked Pepita, who felt that she had made a mistake.
"No. You may go to bed, if you choose."
"Thank you, My Lady."
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