On I went, chin on breast, heedless of all direction—now beneath the
shade of trees, now crossing grassy glades or rolling meadow, or
threading my way through long alleys of hop-vines; on and on, skirting
hedges, by haycocks looming ghostly in the dark, by rustling
cornfields, through wood and coppice, where branches touched me, as I
passed, like ghostly fingers in the dark; on I went, lost to all things
but my own thoughts. And my thoughts were not of Life nor Death nor
the world nor the spaces beyond the world—but of my Virgil book with
the broken cover, and of him who had looked at it—over her shoulder.
And, raising my hands, I clasped them about my temples, and, leaning
against a tree, stood there a great while. Yet, when the trembling fit
had left me, I went on again, and with every footstep there rose a
voice within me, crying: "Why? Why? Why?"
Why should I, Peter Vibart, hale and well in body, healthy in mind—why
should I fall thus into ague-spasms because of a woman—of whom I knew
nothing, who had come I knew not whence, accompanied by one whose
presence, under such conditions, meant infamy to any woman; why should
I burn thus in a fever if she chose to meet another while I was abroad?
Was she not free to follow her own devices; had I any claim upon her;
by what right did I seek to compass her goings and comings, or interest
myself in her doings? Why? Why? Why?
As I went, the woods gradually fell away, and I came out upon an open
place. The ground rose sharply before me, but I climbed on and up and
so, in time, stood upon a hill.
Now, standing upon this elevation, with the woods looming dimly below
me, as if they were a dark tide hemming me in on all sides, I became
conscious of a sudden great quietude in the air—a stillness that was
like the hush of expectancy; not a sound came to me, not a whisper from
the myriad leaves below.
But, as I stood there listening, very faint and far away, I heard a
murmur that rose and died and rose again, that swelled and swelled into
the roll of distant thunder. Down in the woods was a faint rustling,
as if some giant were stirring among the leaves, and out of their
depths breathed a puff of wind that fanned my cheek, and so was gone.
But, in a while, it was back again, stronger, more insistent than
before, till, sudden as it came, it died away again, and all was hushed
and still, save only for the tremor down there among the leaves; but
lightning flickered upon the horizon, the thunder rolled nearer and
nearer, and the giant grew ever more restless.
Round about me, in the dark, were imps that laughed and whispered
together, and mocked me amid the leaves:
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