But she had sprung upon me, and caught me by the arms, and shook me in
a grip so strong that, giddy as I was, I reeled and staggered like a
drunken man. And still her voice hissed: "What do you mean?" And her
voice and hands and eyes were strangely compelling.
"I mean," I answered, in a low, even voice, like one in a trance, "that
you are a Messalina, a Julia, a Joan of Naples, beautiful as they—and
as wanton."
Now at the word she cried out, and struck me twice across the face,
blows that burnt and stung.
"Beast!" she cried. "Liar! Oh, that I had the strength to grind you
into the earth beneath my foot. Oh! you poor, blind, self-deluding
fool!" and she laughed, and her laughter stung me most of all. "As I
look at you," she went on, the laugh still curling her lip, "you stand
there—what you are—a beaten hound. This is my last look, and I shall
always remember you as I see you now—scarlet-cheeked, shamefaced—a
beaten hound!" And, speaking, she shook her hand at me, and turned
upon her heel; but with that word, and in that instant, the old, old
demon leapt up within me, and, as he leapt, I clasped my arms about
her, and caught her up, and crushed her close and high against my
breast.
"Go?" said I. "Go—no—no, not yet!"
And now, as her eyes met mine, I felt her tremble, yet she strove to
hide her fear, and heaped me with bitter scorn; but I only shook my
head and smiled. And now she struggled to break my clasp, fiercely,
desperately; her long hair burst its fastenings, and enveloped us both
in its rippling splendor; she beat my face, she wound her fingers in my
hair, but my lips smiled on, for the hammer in my brain had deadened
all else.
And presently she lay still. I felt her body relax and grow suddenly
pliable and soft, her head fell back across my arm, and, as she lay, I
saw the tears of her helplessness ooze out beneath her drooping lashes;
but still I smiled.
So, with her long hair trailing over me, I bore her to the cottage.
Closing the door behind me with my foot, I crossed the room, and set
her down upon the bed.
She lay very still, but her bosom heaved tumultuously, and the tears
still crept from beneath her lashes; but in a while she opened her eyes
and looked at me, and shivered, and crouched farther from me, among the
pillows.
"Why did you lie to me, Charmian; why did you lie to me?" She did not
answer, only she watched me as one might watch some relentless,
oncoming peril.
"I asked you once if you ever saw men hereabouts—when I was away, do
you remember? You told me, 'no,' and, while you spoke, I knew you
lied, for I had seen him standing among the leaves, waiting and
watching for you. I once asked you if you were ever lonely when I was
away, and you answered 'no',—you were too busy—'seldom went beyond
the Hollow'—do you remember? And yet—you had brought him here—here,
into the cottage he had looked at my Virgil—over your shoulder—do you
remember?"
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