Brothers -- Fiction; Didactic fiction; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Russia -- Social life and customs -- 1533-1917 -- Fiction
And this is what happened: every one was amazed and horrified, every
one refused to believe it and thought that he was deranged, though all
listened with intense curiosity. A few days later it was fully decided
and agreed in every house that the unhappy man was mad. The legal
authorities could not refuse to take the case up, but they too dropped
it. Though the trinkets and letters made them ponder, they decided that
even if they did turn out to be authentic, no charge could be based on
those alone. Besides, she might have given him those things as a
friend, or asked him to take care of them for her. I heard afterwards,
however, that the genuineness of the things was proved by the friends
and relations of the murdered woman, and that there was no doubt about
them. Yet nothing was destined to come of it, after all.
Five days later, all had heard that he was ill and that his life was in
danger. The nature of his illness I can’t explain, they said it was an
affection of the heart. But it became known that the doctors had been
induced by his wife to investigate his mental condition also, and had
come to the conclusion that it was a case of insanity. I betrayed
nothing, though people ran to question me. But when I wanted to visit
him, I was for a long while forbidden to do so, above all by his wife.
“It’s you who have caused his illness,” she said to me; “he was always
gloomy, but for the last year people noticed that he was peculiarly
excited and did strange things, and now you have been the ruin of him.
Your preaching has brought him to this; for the last month he was
always with you.”
Indeed, not only his wife but the whole town were down upon me and
blamed me. “It’s all your doing,” they said. I was silent and indeed
rejoiced at heart, for I saw plainly God’s mercy to the man who had
turned against himself and punished himself. I could not believe in his
insanity.
They let me see him at last, he insisted upon saying good-by to me. I
went in to him and saw at once, that not only his days, but his hours
were numbered. He was weak, yellow, his hands trembled, he gasped for
breath, but his face was full of tender and happy feeling.
“It is done!” he said. “I’ve long been yearning to see you, why didn’t
you come?”
I did not tell him that they would not let me see him.
“God has had pity on me and is calling me to Himself. I know I am
dying, but I feel joy and peace for the first time after so many years.
There was heaven in my heart from the moment I had done what I had to
do. Now I dare to love my children and to kiss them. Neither my wife
nor the judges, nor any one has believed it. My children will never
believe it either. I see in that God’s mercy to them. I shall die, and
my name will be without a stain for them. And now I feel God near, my
heart rejoices as in Heaven ... I have done my duty.”
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