All of a sudden a great fear came upon her, whether of the baron or the
boy, she knew not. Edgar saw that his warning was taking effect, and he
was lured on to win her over to his side and have a comrade in his hate
and hostility toward the baron. He went over to her gently, put his arms
about her, and said in a voice flattering with the excitement quivering
in it:
"Mamma, you yourself must have noticed that it isn't anything good that
he wants. He's made you quite different. You're the one that's changed,
not I. He set you against me just to have you to himself. I'm sure he
means to deceive you. I don't know what he promised you, but whatever it
is, he doesn't intend to keep his promise. You ought to be careful of
him. A man who will lie to one person will lie to another person, too.
He's a bad, bad man. You mustn't trust him."
Edgar's voice, soft and almost tearful, seemed to speak out of her own
heart. Since the day before an uncomfortable feeling had been rising in
her which told her the same, with growing emphasis. But she was ashamed
to tell her own child he was right, and she took refuge, as so many do
when under the stress of overwhelming feeling, in rude rejoinder. She
straightened herself up.
"Children don't understand such things. You have no right to mix into
such matters. You must behave yourself. That's all."
Edgar's face congealed again.
"Very well. I have warned you."
"Then you won't ask the baron's pardon?"
"No."
They stood confronting each other, and the mother knew her authority was
at stake.
"Then you will stay up here and eat by yourself, and you won't be
allowed to come to table and sit with us until you have asked his
pardon. I'll teach you manners. You won't budge from this room until I
give you permission to, do you hear?"
Edgar smiled. That cunning smile seemed to be part of his lips now.
Inwardly he was angry at himself. How foolish to have let his heart run
away with him again and to have tried to warn her, the liar.
His mother rustled out without giving him another glance. That caustic
gaze of his frightened her. The child had become an absolute annoyance
to her since she realized that he had his eyes open and said the very
things she did not want to know or hear. It was uncanny to have an inner
voice, her conscience, dissevered from herself, incorporated in her
child, going about as her child, warning her and making fun of her.
Until then the child had stayed alongside of her life, as an ornament,
a toy, a thing to love and have confidence in, now and then perhaps a
burden, but always something that floated along in the same current as
her own life, keeping even pace with it. For the first time this
something reared itself up and opposed her will. A feeling akin to hate
mingled itself in her thoughts of her child now. And yet, as she was
descending the stairs, a little tired, childish voice came from her own
breast, saying, "You ought to be careful of him."
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