Americans -- Italy -- Fiction; Rome (Italy) -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Upper class -- Fiction
One day he gave her a book that had been mentioned in their
conversations. He did not stop to think that it was the first move he
had made spontaneously in the whole relation. Hitherto every suggestion,
every invitation, had proceeded from her (from her, trembling,
presuffering a rebuff, lightly) and she longed for a first sign of his
interest. When this book was brought to her, then, she lost her balance;
she thought it justified her in pushing the friendship on to new levels,
to almost daily meetings, and to long comradely lazy afternoons. She
never realized that in his eyes she was, first, an enemy to his studies,
and second, that strange hedged monster which all his wide reading had
not been able to humanize: a married woman. She called once too often.
Suddenly he changed; he became rude and abrupt. When she climbed his
stairs he did hide behind the door and the bell rang in vain and with a
menacing sound, though she had her ways of knowing he was in. She became
terrified. Again she confronted that cavern of horror in her nature: she
seemed always to be loving those that did not love her. She came to me,
distraught. I was cautious and offered her philosophy until I could
sound Blair in the matter.
Blair came to me of his own accord. He paced up and down the room,
bewildered, revolted, enraged. His stay in Rome had become impossible.
He no longer dared remain in his room and when he was out he clung to
the side streets. What should he do?
I advised him to leave town.
But how could he? He was in the middle of some work that. Some work
that. Damn it all. All right, he'd go.
I begged him before he went to come to dinner with me once when the
Princess would be present. No, no. Anything but that. I, in turn, became
angry. I analyzed the different kinds of fool he was. An hour later I
was saying that the mere fact of being loved so, whether one could
return it or not, put one under an obligation. More than an obligation
to be merely kind, an obligation to be grateful. Blair did not
understand, but consented at last on the difficult condition that I was
not to reveal to the Princess that he was leaving for Spain on the very
night of the dinner.
Of course, the Princess arrived early, so enchantingly dressed that I
fairly floundered in admitting her. She held tickets for the opera; one
no longer cared to hear _Salome_, but _Petrushka_ was being danced after
it, at ten-thirty. Blair's train left at eleven. He arrived and played
his most gracious. We were really very happy, all of us, as we sat by
the open window, smoking and talking long over Ottima's excellent
_zabiglione_ and harsh Trasteverine coffee.
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