Catholics -- United States -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“Ungrateful I’m not; but greedy? Well, why shouldn’t I be? Hungry
people are greedy, especially for the kind of food that best nourishes
them. Philosophy is all very well, but it’s not always a satisfactory
symptom! Don’t you be too easily satisfied, Miss Holly Adair! One
day couldn’t satisfy me; it whets my appetite!” Rodney’s eyes were
literally devouring, his voice sharp.
“Oh, well, Rod!” Cis said softly. “I’m not exactly easy-going. One day
at a time! They sing a silly hymn at church, all about not praying
for anything, not even to be good, except ‘just for to-day,’ when of
course we’re saying all the time: ‘Now, and at the hour of our death,’
and we’re made to pray for final perseverance! But ‘just for to-day’
comes in all right now; this is our day, and a pretty nice one! I’ve
been happy all day long, and we’re still happy, with two hours and a
half ahead, and I love to ride on the train. A whole day happy is a big
thing!”
“Cis, you speak as if you were afraid! There are years of happy days
ahead, my girl! When I first knew you, Holly dear, I thought I’d never
seen a creature who had passed the twenty-first birthday, who was so
absolutely without a thought of the morrow as you were.” Rodney looked
at Cis questioningly.
“Ah! When you first knew me!” Cis breathed the words so softly that
Rodney leaned forward to catch them. “I’m changing fast, Rod; I have
changed; I’m getting tamed. Happiness scares you when you know you’re
happy. Before I came here I was happy, but it was the way kids are
happy. I didn’t know I was happy; just went along as if I was a boy,
whistling. Now--I think about it.” Cis pulled herself up short, then
she added: “They tell you that life isn’t particularly happy when you
get well into it, that happiness is not meant to last. I suppose what
everybody says is true; how can I help being afraid? But it’s a queer
thing: I’m happier when I’m afraid than I was when I wasn’t afraid one
bit!”
Rodney smiled on her, well-content with her unconscious revelations, or
was it that Cis was so trusting, so honest that she was conscious of
revealing, yet did not mind it?
“Do you believe that you will not be happy, Holly dear? That _we_ shall
not be happy? Do you believe all these croakers who try to make you
think life is a dismal thing, and all true happiness is beyond the
grave? That’s religion’s talk! Don’t you heed it. Of course no clock
strikes twelve every hour, but you’ll see what bliss life holds, and
that we’ll keep tight grasp on it, provided you steer straight. Why,
little kid Cicely, you’ve no more notion of what bliss is ahead of
you than a small brown bunny out in those woods yonder! Believe me,
you glowing, gorgeous-tinted Holly, you will laugh at your fears when
you get over the drunkenness of the joy you’re going to have!” Rodney
smiled at Cis with flashing eyes.
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