Catholics -- United States -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Rodney had a strong reason for wanting to get Cicely to drop her
Church, as he had done; he was delighted to believe that there would
be no obstacle before him there. But Rodney was wrong in thinking that
Cicely was tending toward easy weaning from it. She was remembering
that she had deliberately stayed away from Mass that morning in order
to gratify Rodney; she was determining that she would not do so again.
Hitherto she had not felt any more longing for God than had one of His
young four-footed creatures; she had played in His sight, innocently as
to the actions condemned by man, careless of His service. She had made
her First Communion with awe and faith to a degree, but without the
enkindling of her soul. It did not mean much to her, although she would
have answered correctly any question in the catechism relating to the
two sacraments for which she had then been prepared. She had no mother,
no one to whom her approach to her God mattered vitally, as it must
to a mother whose twofold love for her God and her child breathlessly
watches their compounding. Cis had gone on through her brief years
to the present, sound in mind and body, wholesome and true, but with
not much more spirituality than a kitten. Now she began to grope for
God, afar, dimly; she wanted to find Him to give Him to Rodney. For
Rodney she wanted the best. Like Portia, she began to reach out after
greater values with which to deck herself that she might stand high
in his regard, be fit thus to stand. And she took her first, actually
seeking steps toward God to find Him, the one, all-embracing God in
order to give Him to Rodney. Rod had drifted away; he was not like her;
he had deliberately turned from his Church. Well, she had heard of a
woman, a saint--her name was something that sounded like Money--who had
brought her son into heaven. Surely! St. Augustine, it was, and his
mother, Monica! She, Cis Adair, was by no means a saint, but she might
do that, too, if Rodney loved her well enough. And he did love her!
How he looked at her, with eyes that made her own drop and her cheeks
flush, and then with such gentle tenderness that she could weep. He was
not going to tell her to-day that he loved her; she was glad of that;
she would like to hold off that revelation in spoken words a little
longer. It was so beautiful to look up and surprise its revelation in
his handsome, dear face, and pretend to herself that she had not been
sure that she should see it there! She was a bad girl to have indulged
him by omitting Mass that day, yet how happy it had made him, and how
happy it made her to make him happy! Perhaps it was not so bad, just
this one time! After this she would keep to Mass faithfully and coax
Rodney there with her. Curious that the Beaconhite church where she
went, the one nearest to her boarding place, had no Sunday Mass before
eight! She thought there were always earlier Masses. It was partly the
fault of St. Francis Xavier’s church that she missed Mass to-day; if
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