The effect of his vigil on the dancing side was disturbing to Hayward.
As Helen passed from the arms of one man to another he began to grow
nervous. His positive resentment was aroused when she was whirled past
the window in the embrace of a sprig of nobility attached to the Italian
embassy. Her shivering husband’s blood jumped. He had heard things
about that chap!—oh, the profanation of his even touching the hand of
Helen—thank Heaven the muse has stopped to catch its breath! Next it
was Rutledge treading a measure with the débutante, and his anger burned
again,—flaming no doubt it would have been had he known that the number
was an extra devised by his wife in Rutledge’s special favour. Anything
was better than the Italian though!—some comfort in that.... And now
comes Hal Lodge piloting her through the swirl. Careful, old man, don’t
hold her so close. She is quite able to carry a part of her own weight!
There can be no doubt it takes some culture—of a sort—for a man to be
able to look with entire complacency upon his wife in another’s arms,
however fine a fellow or fast a friend that other is. There be those
who have attained unto such culture: but Hayward had had few
opportunities in that school—he was happily—in this case
unhappily—ignorant of its refinements of learning. He knew, of course,
as a matter of pure mentality, that it was a perfectly harmless pastime,
but his heart would not subscribe to the knowledge. No, he thought, it
was no use to try to deceive himself: he didn’t like it and he didn’t
care to try to like it. She was his wife, and to have other men putting
their arms about her even in the dance, when he himself did not have the
privilege and would not have it until—oh, damn that commission!
* * * * *
The weeks following Helen’s coming-out gave nothing to allay the tumult
rising in her husband’s heart. The duties of his service compelled him
to look on many scenes from which he gladly would have turned his
jealous eyes.
By the grim humour of fate was it, too, that his friend Hal Lodge should
cause him the keenest heart-burnings. Hayward wrote to Helen all about
their friendship and intimate association at Harvard, and in letter
after letter purposely related many incidents of Hal’s college loves and
flirtations so that Helen might know him as he knew him. He was loyal
to his friendship however, and gave also a faithful account of Hal’s
excellences. There was no stint in his praise, nor any attempt to
belittle Lodge in his wife’s esteem. In such glowing terms did he sing
of his friend’s many virtues that he did not have the courage to unsay a
word of it when friendship was turned to gall.
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