Unbelievable? Beyond doubt. Unthinkable even—to him who knew. But the
fabrication artist hammered his brain and heart with such a mass of
detail, with such a crushing tone of assuredness and authority, that the
footman’s thoughts and beliefs were pounded into stupefaction and he
knew neither what to think nor what to believe. His brain jumped to
recall the details of their marriage, in fearful search of a possible
defect or omission which might vitiate it. It had been very hurriedly
done, all superfluities were omitted, but the officer had assured him
that they were hard and fast man and wife.
Had Helen discovered a flaw in the contract? And would she evade it
thus? ... When that last question struck his brain, a dozen passions
swarmed to fight within his heart: love, jealousy, fear, defiance.
Shaking with the tumult of them all, he wrote to Helen again.
"It has been six long weeks since you received my last letter. Not a
word has come to me in answer till this, to-day:
(Here he pasted in the headlines clipped from the _Journal_.)
"Is this your reply? If it is, I swear to you it shall not be. That
insufferable cad cannot live upon the earth to take you from me. I will
snuff his contemptible life out rather. You know that you are
mine—wife—by every vow and promise which the law prescribes. It is
incredible that you should ignore your troth plighted to me. It is
impossible for you to break it in this fashion. I would not have
believed you could be a fickle and unfaithful Helen. I do not believe
it. It is a lie. Write and tell me it is a lie. Write quickly for the
love of God. No, no, you need not write. It is false. I know it is
false—for you cannot be false.
"But oh my Helen, why did you not listen to me? Why did you, a wedded
wife, persist in receiving attentions from men, from this one man in
particular, the most contemptibly caddish creature among all your
admirers? I have deplored your unrestraint but I resent it that _Lodge_
should have found such special favour at your hands as to give currency
to this report. He is unutterably unworthy. I beseech you by the love
I shall dare to believe is mine until you tell me I have lost it to
conduct yourself so that such lies as this shall not be printed. Think
what will be said of your gayeties when it is announced that you have
been married a year. I love you, wildly, madly, as this incoherent
letter shows. You have told me that your love is mine and I believe it.
Forgive me and write to me, queen of my heart. I am starving for lack
of the love which is already my own."
Helen’s reply to that letter came quickly enough.
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