He had been quite unconscious of anything around him in his absorbed
interest in the ceremony below him. This manifest interest was
evidenced by his nervous hands which he clinched and opened and shut as
varying expressions of enthusiasm, resentment and disappointment,
humiliation, disdain and determination came and went over his face. He,
Hayward Graham, had applied to enlist in this regiment a month before,
and had been refused admission because of the small portion of negro
blood in his veins,—and that in a manner, too, that added unnecessary
painfulness to the refusal. He rather despised himself for coming to
witness the regiment’s response to the call for troops, but his
patriotic interest and his love for his friend Hal Lodge, who had
loyally assisted his effort to enlist in the 71st, overcame his pride,
and he had come to see the decision of Hal’s enthusiastic wager that
nine-tenths of the regiment would volunteer.
The first trumpet-call had stirred his enthusiasm, only to have it
turned to chagrin and resentfulness when the roll-calls brought to him
the realization that his name was not among the elect, and the black
humiliation of the thought that he might not even offer to die for his
country in this select company because he was part—so small a
part—negro; and he gnawed his lips in irritation. But when the flags
had come in so suddenly—he involuntarily straightened up and took in his
breath quickly to relieve the smothering sensation in his throat, and
forgot his wrongs in an exaltation of patriotic fervour.
He stood abstracted for some time after the outflow from the galleries
began, and came down just behind the three women of the Colonel’s
family. At the foot of the stairs Lieutenant Morgan met the party and
said, "Mrs. Phillips, the Colonel told me to bring you ladies over to
his office."
"So that’s the Colonel’s wife and daughters," thought Graham, as he
passed out into the street. "Where have I seen that little one?"
*CHAPTER II*
After lingering at the entrance of the armory for a few minutes to see
Hal Lodge, and failing to find him, Graham, still gloomily and
resentfully meditating upon his rejection by the regiment, started
briskly toward the temporary lodgings of his mother and himself as if he
had some purpose in mind. Arrived there, he began catechizing her even
while removing his overcoat.
"Look here, mother, put down that work for awhile, and tell me all about
my people."
"What is it, Hayward? What do you want to know?" his mother asked.
"I want you to tell me all about my father and grandfathers and
grandmothers, everything you know—who they were, and what they were, and
what they did, and where they lived—the whole thing."
"And what is the matter that you want to know all that at once? Are you
still worrying about not getting into that regiment?"
"Yes; I want to know why I am not good enough to go to war along with
respectable people—if there is any reason."
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