His overwhelming horror was not alleviated by a moment’s doubt. He
marvelled rather that he had never guessed what he had done. The
walking in his sleep, the shot that woke him, the first words of Dr.
Baumgartner, his first swift action, and the warm pistol in his own
unconscious hand: these burning memories spoke more eloquently than any
words. They would have told their own tale at once, if only he had
known the man was dead. Why had he been deceived? It was cruel, it was
infamous, to have kept the truth from him for a single instant. Thus
wildly did the stricken youth turn and rend his benefactor for the very
benefaction of a day’s rest in ignorance of his deed. The doctor
defended himself firmly, frankly, with much patience and some cynicism.
Pocket was reminded of the state he himself had been in at the time. He
also might have been a dying man, he was assured, and could well
believe on looking back. Baumgartner had actually opened his lips to
tell him the truth, but had checked himself in sheer humanity. Again
the boy could confirm the outward detail out of his own recollection.
To have told him later in the morning, the doctor went on to say, with
an emphasis not immediately understood, could have undone nothing. He
acknowledged a grave responsibility, but rightly or wrongly he had put
the living before the dead.
How had he known the man was dead? Baumgartner smiled at the question.
He was not only a doctor, but an old soldier who had fought in one at
least of the bloodiest battles in European history. He had seen too
many men fall shot through the heart to be mistaken for a moment; but
in point of fact he had confirmed his conviction by brief examination
while Pocket was fetching his things from behind the bush. Pocket
pressed for earlier details with a morbid appetite which was not
gratified without reluctance, and out of a laconic interchange the deed
was gradually reconstructed with appealing verisimilitude. It was
Baumgartner who had first caught sight of the somnambulist, treading
warily like the blind, yet waving the revolver as he went, as though
any moment he might let it off. The moment came with a wretched reeling
man who joined Baumgartner on the path, and would not be warned. The
poor man had raised a drunken shout and been shot pointblank through
the heart. The doctor described him as leaping backward from the
levelled barrel, then into the air and down in the dew upon his face.
The boy buried his face and wept; but even in his anguish he now
recalled the shout before the shot. The enforced description had been
so vivid in the end that he beheld the scene as plainly as though he
had been wide awake. Then he dwelt upon the dead man, looking nothing
else as he now remembered him, and that sent him off at a final
tangent.
He cried, looking up with a shudder for all his tears, “What about that
negative you smashed? It was the poor dead man all the time!”
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