That was what she needed--forgetfulness and work ... She did not love
him--no, not one little atom. She had never felt less excitement about
anybody, but she liked him, respected him, and trusted him. And he
wanted her, wanted her desperately, Katherine had said, that was the
chief thing of all.
"Maggie!" he said suddenly, turning round to her. "Would you ever think
of marrying me?"
She liked that directness and simplicity, characteristic of him.
She looked up at him.
"I don't think I'd be much of a success, Paul," she said.
He saw at once from that that she did not intend instantly to refuse
him. His rosy cheeks took on an added tinge of colour and he caught a
chair, drew it up to her long one and sat down, bending eagerly towards
her.
"Leave that to me," he said.
"I oughtn't to think of it," she answered, shaking her head. "And for
very good reasons. For one thing I'm not in love with you, for another
I'm not religious, and for a third I'm so careless that I'd never do
for your wife."
"Of course I knew about the first," he said eagerly. "I knew you didn't
love me, but that will come, Maggie. It MUST come ..."
Maggie shook her head. "I love some one else," she said, "and I always
will. But he's gone away and will never come back. I've made up my mind
to that. But if he did come back and wanted me I couldn't promise that
I wouldn't--" She broke off. "You can see that it wouldn't do."
"No, I can't see," he said, taking her hand. "I can see that you like
me, Maggie. I can see that we're splendid friends. If your
other--friend--has left you altogether, then--well, time makes a great
difference in those things. I think after we'd been together a
little--Oh, Maggie, do!" he broke off just like a boy. "Do! We suit
each other so well that we MUST be happy, and then Grace likes you--she
likes you very much. She does indeed."
"Let's leave Grace out of this," Maggie said firmly. "It's between you
and me, Paul. It's nobody else's affair. What about the other two
objections? I don't believe in your faith at all, and I'm unpunctual
and forgetful, and break things."
Strangely she was wanting him urgently now to reassure her. She
realised that if now he withdrew she would be faced with a loneliness
more terrible than anything that she had known since Martin had left
her. The warm pressure of his hand about hers reassured her.
"Maggie dear," he said softly, "I love you better because you're young
and unformed. I can help you, dear, and you can help me, of course; I'm
a dreadful old buffer in many ways. I'm forty, you know, and you're
such a child. How old are you, Maggie?"
"Twenty," she said.
"Twenty! Fancy! And you can like an old parson--well, well ... If you
care for me nothing else matters. God will see to the rest."
"I don't like leaving things to other people," Maggie said slowly. "Now
I suppose I've shocked you. But there you are; I shall always be
shocking you."
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