"It doesn't matter," said Grace; "but how you could forget, Maggie, is
so strange! Do try not to forget things. I know it worries Paul. For
myself I don't care, although I do value punctuality and memory--I do
indeed. What I mean is that it isn't for my own happiness that I mind--"
"I don't want to forget," said Maggie. "One would think to hear you,
Grace, that you imagine I like forgetting."
"Really, Maggie," said Grace, "I don't think that's quite the way to
speak to me."
And again and again throughout the long winter this little episode
figured.
"You'll remember to be punctual, won't you, Maggie? Not like the time
when you forgot to tell me."
"You'll forgive me reminding you, Maggie, but I didn't want it to be
like the time you forgot to give me--"
"Oh, you'd better not trust to Maggie, Paul. Only the other day when
you gave her the message about Evensong--"
Grace meant no harm by this. Her mind moved slowly and was entangled by
a vast quantity of useless lumber. She was really shocked by
carelessness and inaccuracy because she was radically careless and
inaccurate herself but didn't know it.
"If there's one thing I value it's order." she would say, but in
struggling to remember superficial things she forgot all essentials.
Her brain moved just half as slowly as everything else.
That winter was warm and muggy, with continuous showers of warm rain
that seamed to change into mud in the air as it fell.
The Church was filled with the clammy mist of its central heating.
Maggie, as she sat through service after service, watched one headache
race after another. The air was full of headache; she asked once that a
window might be kept open. "That would mean Death in Skeaton. You don't
understand the Skeaton air," said Grace.
"That's because I don't get enough of it," said Maggie. She found
herself looking back to the Chapel services with wistful regret. What
had there been there that was not here? Here everything was ordered,
arranged, in decent sequence, in regular symmetry and progression. And
yet no one seemed to Maggie to listen to what they were saying, and no
one thought of the meaning of the words that they used.
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