The Catholic World, Vol. 21, April, 1875, to September, 1875: A Monthly Magazine of General Literature and ScienceVarious
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The Catholic World, Vol. 21, April, 1875, to September, 1875: A Monthly Magazine of General Literature and Science
Various
Catholic Church -- Periodicals
“Lorenzo,” said I all at once, “why not take me with you, instead of
leaving me here?”
“To the war?” said he, smiling.
“No, but to Italy. You could leave me, no matter where. On the other side
of the Alps I should be near you, and … should you have need of me, I
could go to you.”
He remained thoughtful for a moment, and then said, as if speaking to
himself:
“Yes, should I be wounded, and have time to see you again, it would be a
consolation, it is true.”
We became silent again, and I awaited his decision with a beating heart.
Finally he said in a decided tone:
“No, Ginevra, it cannot be. Remain here. It is my wish. You must.”
“Why?” asked I, trying to keep back the tears that burst from my eyes at
his reply--“why? Oh! tell me why?”
“Because,” replied he firmly, “I have no idea what will be the result of
the war in Italy. Very probably it will cause insurrections everywhere,
perhaps revolutions.”
“O my God!” cried I with terror … “and you expect me not to feel any
horror at this war! Even if it had not come to overturn my poor life, how
can I help shuddering at the thought of all the misery it is about to
produce?”
“What can you expect, Ginevra? Yes, it is a serious affair. God alone
knows what it will lead to. You see Mario writes Sicily is already
a-flame. No one can tell what will take place at Naples. I should not be
easy about you anywhere but here.… No, Ginevra, you cannot go. You must
remain here. I insist upon it.”
I knew, from the tone in which he said this, it was useless to insist,
and I bent my head in silence. He gently continued, as he pressed my hand
in his:
“The war will be short, I hope, Ginevra. If I am spared, I will hasten to
resume the dear life we have led here. But if, on the contrary.…”
He stopped a moment, then, with a sudden change of manner and an accent I
shall never forget, he continued:
“But why speak to you as I should to any other woman? Why not trust to
the inward strength you possess, which has as often struck me as your
sweetness of disposition? I know now where your strength comes from, and
will speak to you without any circumlocution.”
I looked at him with surprise at this preamble, and by the soft evening
light I saw a ray of heaven in his eyes; for they beamed with faith and
humility as he uttered the following words:
“Why deceive you, Ginevra? Why not tell you I feel this is the last hour
we shall ever pass together in this world?”
I shuddered. He put his arm around my waist, and drew me towards him.
“No, do not tremble!… Listen to me.… If I feel I am to die, I have
always thought a life like mine required some other expiation besides
repentance. The happiness you have afforded me is not one, and who knows
if its continuation might not become a source of danger to me? Whereas
to die now would be something; it would be a sacrifice worthy of being
offered … and accepted.”
My head had again fallen on his shoulder, and my heart beat so rapidly I
was not able to reply.
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