He hastened to her and caught both her hands; she murmured something,
and he sank to his knee pressing his lips upon the hard brilliants
hemming her gown. She turned slightly, he sprang to his feet clutching
her lovely bare arm and drew her close. He whispered eagerly,
passionately, and Alpha gazed at him dazed, fascinated—she realized her
ideal, she had met her affinity.
He led her to the forest of strange, tropical plants, whose branches
housed hundreds of drowsy songsters drugged with the sweet, pungent
odors from the voluptuously undulating fountain. These two will wander
in this paradise of love, his arms clasped about her, whispering words
of adoration while she listens intoxicated, wildly, deliriously happy,
in her earthly heaven.
I watched them pass down the moss-covered path till the thick foliage of
strange spices hid them from view—then I realized.
Numbed, chilled, I turned away, every thought swallowed in great
physical pain, a hand of iron clutched my heart and wrung it dry as a
sponge. I had a vague idea of falling, not suddenly, but gradually,
easily; of many people hurrying to me; then Saxe. loomed above, and as
in a dream, came the words: “Courage, courage, my boy; be a man. Help!
help!” he shouted in tones that pierced my brain, then borne to me
vividly, yet as though thousands of miles away: “Heavens! how the woman
deceived us all!” and my last flickering thought before blank was she
had deceived no one, least of all myself.
In the garden, full length upon the lawn, the sweet, cool air revived
me, but not for an instant had I lost consciousness.
My friends were about me, anxious, grave; distinctly I heard Saxe.
mutter: “We must get out of this and quick. Can’t have the boy carrying
on this way.”
I remained silent, rather comfortable than otherwise, dreamily wondering
what the row was about; then, like a flash, I knew and a dull, heavy,
sickening feeling gripped my whole mind. To escape the hell’s torment of
memory I would have given life. Oblivion? yes; if I could never have
realized. Now, God! All the little tantalizing delights, the sweet
doubts vanishing in happy possession I was so sure of—all was over. Who
could have foreseen such an end? The very peculiarities of this woman
forbade such a finale. Instead, all would have expected this stately,
high-souled, devout creature to renounce mankind, remaining true to her
deity, secluded, to bask forever in the warm rays of the fiery god she
worshipped. Oh, if I could have remembered her always as the Priestess
of the Sun! To have renounced the wonderful, mystical being I
discovered! I mourned for the beautiful ideal shattered by the woman,
though fashioned by a master’s hand the delicate veneer revealed the
commonplace at the first test—the idealist’s mist blinds all eyes. And
she had done as the whole world of women have ever done—surrendered at
the first flash of a pair of handsome eyes and sensitive red lips.
Ah, Alpha! Alpha Centauri!
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