I mourn for the romance, bah! I have no passion for the woman. I rolled
in the cool, green moisture, moaning aloud my misery. Some one attempted
sympathy. I sprang up, pushing him aside.
“None of that,” I told them, roughly, “Saunders’s prophecy has come
true. I am anxious for departure, the sooner now the better.”
I left them. How could they console me for the beautiful astral thing
that had passed out of my soul. I was fond of them; yes, but—what a
deadly disgust I felt for all things.
Sheldon followed me and drew my arm within his. He said nothing, but I
understood his deep sympathy, far different from that usually extended
by those who cruelly select the most inopportune moment for reminder,
and all through distaste to witness suffering embarrassingly mouth
stupid, meaningless warnings. My unhappiness caused Sheldon sincere
pain. I held out for a second, haughty in my misery, then my head
dropped to his shoulder as a choking sob escaped me.
He led me far away from the brilliant palace, blazing lights, and gay
music, away from the maddening sound of laughter, far, far to the
outskirts of the city; and Sheldon talked, talked, talked; evenly,
monotonously, and vaguely I understood that in a marvelous cool and
dispassionate manner he was telling me the romance of his life—all men
have one and live. My own grief was too vividly fresh for me to follow
him entirely, but Sheldon’s sorrow was caused by the knowledge that the
woman he adored had never been happy. His romance was ordinary and
occurred when he was very young or it wouldn’t have happened.
They had been separated by lack of funds and a scheming mother, and both
learned all about it when it was too late. She had made a very good wife
for the wrong man, and had been in her grave these twenty years. And
with a deep sigh poor old Sheldon handed me an old-fashioned locket, and
I gazed upon a girl with a round, fresh face, saucer eyes and ringlets.
He loved as I, not the woman but the ideal, and had been true because he
never possessed. He would mourn forever for this moon-faced chit, who if
she were to confront the matured Sheldon of to-day would not rouse even
interest.
We tramped the live-long night, returning to the palace when the sky
flushed red with the rising sun.
Hilarity had deserted the palace, the stillness of wan fatigue reigned,
and surrounding all was that stale, dissipated atmosphere, the aftermath
of an orgie. The lights were still burning in the spacious salon, and
the crystal floor was strewn with wilted flowers smothering and dying in
their own sickening-sweet, poisonous odor.
The banquet tables flickered in gorgeous disarray, their rich scarfs
stained with the wine that had flowed freely, the pungent odor mingled
with that of stale fruit and dying flowers. I turned from it all with
loathing, and Sheldon hurried me up to our apartments.
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