“I used to think, too, if I only could see when my eyes were shut
everything would appear different. So I would lie pretending to be
asleep, and then suddenly jerk my eyes open, thinking I should catch
everything strangely changed. But there invariably was the cupboard
and the dressing-table, and all the familiar objects just as they had
been. I endowed them with a sense of mockery at my efforts, and of
being immeasurably subtler than I. So I would lie quite still, and
stealthily lift a lid. But no, they were always the same. This did
not convince me they did not move. On the contrary, I would say to
myself with a sense of vexed despair, ‘I shall never, never know what
things look like when I’m not seeing them.’”
Clare said, “Mummie believes, you know, that if you think about a
thing a great deal--something, I mean, that isn’t really alive, as we
are--that you endow it with a sort of image of life, and that strange
things can happen in this way. Gems that have been thought magical,
and idols that have been worshipped for centuries, have their being.
That is why she would never like to have a Buddha in her house; she
would think it would feel neglected. It would suffer and be cold, and
its suffering would stream from it, and affect others. Besides, the
wrongfulness it would be, to treat something that a great many people
think sacred, merely as an ornament, or a curiosity.”
“I had a brooch once,” said Miss Ross, “that had a life of its own.
It had many other things to do beside being my brooch, that was quite
certain. I first found out it was a person by its evidently hearing
what I said. It was a gold brooch, fashioned like an instep, or a
curved willow leaf, and the pin worked on a principle evolved ages
ago by some primitive race. ‘Never,’ said I one morning, in a moment
of impatience--‘never will I again use such a clumsy pin as this. It
tears lace, and once inserted in any material it is almost impossible
to dislodge.’ I was pricked to the bone.
“This brooch would go away for days to attend to its own business;
and when I’d given up looking for it, there I would find it on my
pincushion, looking me in the eye. Even my maid, a most unimaginative
woman, appeared to be conscious of its ways.
“‘I see your brooch has come back, Miss,’ she would say. Finally it
chose a worthier home.
“I was travelling with my parents in Italy, driving through Tuscany
in our private coach. We stayed for some weeks in Florence, and
during that time I used to attend Mass in one of the great churches
there. I became acquainted with the old priest who officiated.
One day as I was leaving the church, he said to me, ‘Signora, have
you seen the gift that has been made? The blue robe that has been
presented to the Madonna?’
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