“I thought you had done with it, my son, but Heaven knew better. And
promise that when you are there you will pray for our wandering brother,
that he may not be allowed to fulfil the errand on which you sent him
out; pray that he may never find his sister, or anybody who knows her
and can tell him where she is and what has become of her; pray that
she may never cross his path to the last hour of life and the first
of death's sundering; promise to pray for this, my son, night and day,
morning and evening, with all your soul and strength, as you would pray
for God's mercy and your soul's salvation.”
John did not answer; he was like a man in a stupor. “Is it possible?” he
said. “Are you sending me back to the door? Can you trust me again?”
The Father stepped to the side of the bed and took the key of the gate
from its place under the shelf. “Take this key with you, too, because
for the future you are to be the keeper of the gate as well.”
John had taken the key mechanically, hardly hearing what was being said.
“Is it true, then--have you got faith in me still?”
The Father put both hands on his shoulders again and looked into his
face. “God has faith in you, my child, and who am I that I should
despair?”
When John Storm returned to the door his mind was in a state of
stupefaction. Many hours passed during which he was only partly
conscious of what was taking place about him. Sometimes he was aware
that certain of the brothers had gathered around, with a tingling,
electrical atmosphere among them, and that they were asking questions
about the escape, and whispering together as if it had been something
courageous and almost commendable, and had set their hearts beating.
Again, sometimes he was aware that big Brother Andrew was sitting by his
side on the form, stroking his arm from time to time, and talking in his
low voice and aimless way about his mother and the last he saw of her.
“She followed me down the street crying,” he said, “and I have often
thought of it since and been tempted to run away.” Also he was aware
that the dog was with him always, licking the backs of his stiff hands
and poking up a cold snout into his downcast face.
All this time he was doing his duties automatically and apparently
without help from his consciousness, opening and closing the door as the
brothers passed in and out on their errands to the dead and dying, and
saying, “Praise be to God!” when a stranger knocked. It may be that his
body was merely answering to the habits of its intellect, and that
his soul, which had sustained a terrible blow, was lying stunned and
swooning within.
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