He tramped through the slums of Melbourne and Sydney, and afterward
through the slums of London, returned to the Isle of Man a Christian
Socialist, and announced to his father his intention of going into the
Church.
The old man did not fume and fly out. He staggered back to his room like
a bullock to its pen after it has had its death-blow in the shambles.
In the midst of his dusty old bureau, with its labelled packets full of
cuttings, he realized that twenty years of his life had been wasted. A
son was a separate being, of a different growth, and a father was only
the seed at the root that must decay and die.
Then he made some show of resistance.
“But with your talents, boy, surely you are not going to throw away your
chances of a great name?”
“I care nothing for a great name, father,” said John. “I shall win a
greater victory than any that Parliament can give me.”
“But, my boy, my dear boy! one must either be the camel or the
camel-driver; and then society----”
“I hate society, and society would hate me. It is only for the sake of
the few godly men that God spares it as he spared Sodom for Lot's sake.”
Having braved this ordeal and nearly broken the heart of his old father,
he turned for his reward to Glory. He found her at her usual haunt on
the headlands.
“I was blushing when you came up, wasn't I?” she said. “Shall I tell you
why?”
“Why?”
“It was this,” she said, with a sweep of her hand across her bosom.
He looked puzzled.
“Don't you understand? This old rag--it's the one I was wearing before
you went away.”
He wanted to tell her how well she looked in it--better than ever now
that her bosom showed under its seamless curves, and her figure had
grown so lithe and shapely. But though she was laughing he saw she was
ashamed of her poverty, and he thought to comfort her.
“I'm to be a poor man myself in future, Glory. I've quarrelled with my
father. I'm going to take Orders.”
Her face fell. “Oh, I didn't think anybody would be poor who could help
it. To be a clergyman is all right for a poor man, perhaps, but I hate
to be poor; it's horrid.”
Then darkness fell upon his eyes and he felt sad and sick. Glory had
disappointed him. She was vain, she was worldly, she was incapable of
the higher things; she would never know what a sacrifice he had made
for her; she would think nothing of him now; but he would go on all the
same, the more earnestly because the devil had drawn a bow at him and
the arrow had gone in up to the feathers.
“With God's help I shall nail my colours to the mast,” he said.
Thus he made up his mind to follow the unrolling of the scroll. He had
the strength called character. The Church had been his beacon before,
but now it was to be his refuge.
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