As he ascended the pulpit he thought he saw the white bonnets of a group
of nurses in the dim distance of one of the aisles, but he did not see
Glory and he dared not look again. His text was, “My kingdom is not
of this world.” He gave it out twice, and his voice sounded strange to
himself--so weak and thin in that hollow place.
When he began to speak his sentences seemed awkward and difficult. The
things of the world were temporal and the nations of the world were out
of harmony with God. Men were biting and devouring each other who ought
to live as brothers. “Cheat or be cheated” was the rule of life, as
the modern philosopher had said. On the one side were the many dying of
want, on the other side the few occupied with poetry and art, writing
addresses to flowers, and peddling--in the portraiture of the moods
and methods of love, living lives of frivolity, taking pleasure in mere
riches and the lusts of the eye, while thousands of wretched mortals
were grovelling in the mire.... Then where was our refuge? ...
The Church was the refuge of God's people ... from Christ came the
answer--the answer--the----
His words would not flow. He fought hard, threw out another passage,
then stammered, began again, stammered again, felt hot, made a fresh
effort, flagged, rattled out some words he had fixed in his mind,
perspired, lost his voice, and finally stopped in the middle of a
sentence and said, “And now to God the Father--” and came down from the
pulpit.
His sermon had been a failure, and he knew it. On going back to the
sacristy the Reverend Golightly congratulated him with a simper and a
vapid smile. The canon was more honest but more vain. He mingled lofty
advice with gentle reproof. Mr. Storm had taken his task too lightly.
Better if he had written his sermon and read it. Whatever might
serve for the country, congregations in London--at All Saints'
especially--expected culture and preparation.
“For my own part I confess--nay, I am proud to declare--my watchword is
Rehearse! Rehearse! Rehearse!”
As for the doctrine of the sermon it was not above question. It was
necessary to live in the _nineteenth_ century, and it was impossible to
apply to its conditions the rules of life that had been proper to the
first.
John Storm made no resistance. He slept badly that night. As often as he
dozed off he dreamed that he was trying to do something he could not do,
and when he awoke he became hot as with the memory of a disgrace. And
always at the back of his shame was the thought of Glory.
Next morning he was alone in his room and fumbling the toast on his
breakfast table, when the door opened and a cheery voice cried, “May I
no come in, laddie?”
An elderly lady entered. She was tall and slight and had a long, fine
face, with shrewd but kindly eyes, and nearly snow-white hair.
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