“They! Oh, no! Poor wretches! They are honest! I understand them! But
it is the strain of trying to understand St. John’s that is killing
me!” his hand went impatiently to his head.
Serene and low the Bishop’s words, “Then why not go to your people of
the Southside?”
“And _leave St. John’s_?”
“If you do not understand the people of St. John’s. If it is killing
you.”
“They would think me a madman!”
“Does it matter, what they think?”
“It has mattered,” Newbold replied grimly, “a good bit, for eight
years!”
“And where has that road brought us, lad?”
Silence.
Low, incisive against the stillness, the Bishop’s voice, “Verily you
have _had_ your reward.”
Newbold’s hands dropped to the desk motionless.
“Yet even so, amid the praise of men, there was one man whose praise
you never had.”
Newbold lifted his eyes in interrogation.
“Yourself!” the Bishop concluded.
Suddenly Newbold’s face, set as marble, puckered unbearably. “There’s
someone else, too!” Forcing the words out, he quoted, “‘I don’t care if
you are a minister. I’m your son, and I know you’re a hypocrite!’ How’s
that,” he was furious at the catch in his throat, “how’s that--for a
speech--from an only son--on Christmas morning!”
“It is not true, Murray!”
“You are perhaps the only man who believes in me, Bishop.”
“It is because I have known you longest.”
“I am afraid the truth is that your namesake, my son, has the sharper
eyes, as well as the sharper tongue. A son’s estimate of his father
is doubtless the correct one. Yet it’s an ugly word--hypocrite! I
confess it drew blood, and knocked me out for the day.” He looked oddly
sheepish, boyish, in his confession, in spite of all the signs of
torturing nerves upon a body too vigorous to take ill-health with any
poise or patience. “You see I got up this morning feeling rather out
of sorts. I hadn’t slept since twelve. I’ve been dreading the services
more and more lately. I’m haunted by the idea of collapsing suddenly
before the eyes of my congregation--those eyes!
“Then breakfast was late. If only, only, only,” his heavy fist came
down lightly but tensely upon the blotter, “the women would not look as
if they expected a scene under such circumstances. I had meant to hold
my tongue. But I didn’t. Nobody said anything, so I fancy I continued
to fill in the pauses. Harry sat with a face that made me want to knock
him down. It was afterwards that he spoke, a full hour afterwards, when
I had managed to pull myself together and was on my way to church. He
stopped me in the hall with ‘Going to the communion, father? After
making mother and Lois feel like that?’ Then he added that little
remark about hypocrisy, I came back upstairs, here. Presently you came.
A highly successful Christmas! A merry family group, do you not think
so, Bishop?”
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