St. Dunstan or Luther would have stood his ground, as did Christian
against Apollyon, but I had not the pluck of these worthies, and had I
been endowed with the spirit of all three, there were neither tongs,
ink-stand, nor two-edged sword handy. So I chose the wiser part of
valor, and ran, in frenzied haste, for the house, never stopping until I
was safely ensconced under my mother’s bed. Here I lay for a long time,
quaking with fear, queer shivers running down my spine at thought of the
sharp points I had so narrowly escaped. Then the supper-bell rang, and I
crept out, unperceived. I had no appetite, and must have worn a
strange, scared look, for my mother asked if I were sick. I answered,
“No,” very shame-facedly, and she did not press her inquiries. Children
are not apt to be very communicative as to any great fright, except in
the excitement of the first alarm. They fear to live it over in the
recital.
That night, for the first time in my life, I cried to have the lamp left
burning in the chamber where I slept. My mother reasoned with me, for a
while, telling me that the angels watched over good children, etc. This
I did not doubt, but I was by no means sure that I _was_ a good child.
The apparition of the afternoon was frightful circumstantial evidence to
the contrary. At last she scolded me for my cowardice and went away,
taking the precious light with her. I wonder that my hair did not turn
white during the ensuing hours of thick darkness. I pity myself now, as
I remember the poor, frightened baby, lying trembling on her little bed,
and staring into the gloom, peopled by her imagination with horrors.
Driven to desperation, I once awoke my older sister, who shared my
couch, and, in an awe-stricken whisper, imparted my fears and their
origin. She was not credulous or imaginative, and, perhaps, did not
quite understand what I said, for her only answer was--“pshaw!” and she
was sound asleep again in a second. How and when slumber came to me I
know not, but my mother reproved me, next morning, for wrapping the
coverlet so tightly about my head, saying that I would be smothered some
night, if I continued the practice.
Three sentences from either of my parents would have laid the hobgoblin
to rest forever, and I recollect that I did, several times, essay to
broach the subject to my mother, very unskillfully, I dare say, for she
did not encourage my preliminary remarks, and resolution failed me
before I reached the point. I was a tall girl of fourteen when I
confessed to her that, for five or six years, I believed that I had
really seen the devil!
Lastly--for my rambling “talk” has already transcended the limits I at
first assigned to it--_Babies have a right to be babies_.
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