It was no longer his own work that interested him; for whatever contempt
the artist may have for his wage, he knows his day is past when the
public will no longer pay him for his labour. All the heart of him now,
was centred in John. It was John who would express those things his own
fingers had failed to touch. He had seen it exultantly in many a line,
in many a phrase which this last book had contained; for though the mind
which had conceived it was a new mind, the mind of another generation
than his own, yet it was the upward growth from the thoughts he had
cherished, a higher understanding of the very ideas that he had held.
He, Thomas Grey, the artist, was living again in John Grey, the writer,
the journalist, the driver of the pen. In the mind of his son, was the
resurrection of his own intellect, the rejuvenescence of his own powers,
the vital link between him, passing into the dust, and those things
which are eternal.
It was not until John had been there two or three days, that his mother
found her opportunity.
The old gentleman had gone to the _Merceria_ to look after the Treasure
Shop. Foscari, it seemed, had been selling some more of his beloved
curios. A packet of money had been sent to him the evening before for a
set of three Empire fans, treasures he had bought in Paris twenty years
before. With a smothered sigh, the little old lady had consented to
their going to the _Merceria_. Only to make a show, he had promised her
that. They should never be purchased by anyone, and he put such a price
upon them as would frighten the passing tourist out of his wits. It was
like Foscari to find a man who was rich enough and fool enough to buy
them. With his heart thumping and, for the first time in his life, not
quite being able to look John in the eyes, he had made some excuse--a
picture to be framed--and gone out, leaving them alone.
This was the very moment John had dreaded. He knew that those bright
brown eyes had been reading the deepest corners of his heart, had only
been biding their time until such moment as this. He had felt them
following him wherever he went; had realised that into everything he
did, they were reading the hidden despair of his mind with an intuition
so sure, so unerring, that it would be quite useless for him to
endeavour to hide anything from her.
And now, at last they were alone. The sun was burning in through the
windows into the little room. The old garden below was pale in the heat
of it.
For a little while, he stood there at the window in nervous suspense,
straining to think of things to say which might distract her mind from
that subject which he knew to be uppermost in her thoughts. And all the
time his face was turned away as he gazed down on to the old garden, he
could still feel her eyes watching him, until at last the growing
anticipation that she would break the silence with a question to which
he could not reply, drove him blindly to speak.
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