What thoughts passed through the minds of those two who knelt there,
playing their part, acting the life which both of them knew could never
be real, it would be impossible to say. In the face of death, the mind
has such simple thoughts, that words can scarcely touch their
expression. Remorse may have scourged them; it may have been that, in
seeing the peaceful passing of his spirit, they were satisfied that what
they did was for the best; or, in the deepest secrets of their hearts
they may have been longing that it all were true. Yet, there they both
knelt, with the little old white-haired lady by their side. For all the
world you might have thought, as did all the others in the room, that
they were husband and wife on the very threshold of that journey through
the years of which this death-bed meeting was the gate where all must
pass out into the land that is in the blue haze beyond.
Presently, the voice of the priest became silent. The heads of all sank
lower in their hands as the Extreme Unction was given. God visits the
earth in great silences. It was a wonderful silence then. The wine
gurgling softly into the cup, the unfolding of the little napkin, the
patten lying on the tongue, the last brave effort as the old gentleman
swallowed the sacred bread, were all noises that thrilled and quivered
in that silence.
Then it was all passed, all finished, the spirit cleansed, the last
gentle confession made of such sins of thought and deed as a brave and
generous gentleman is capable of. The priest rose to his feet and,
taking his little vessels with him in their case, stole quietly from the
room. A moment or so passed in still deeper silence. At last Claudina
rose. She crossed herself as she passed the little altar, crept also to
the door and went away.
Now the silence was still deeper than before, as though, in the mere
functions of their living, these two had taken with them their
disturbing elements of full-blooded life from this place where life was
so fainting and so weak. When they had gone, the very vibrations of air
seemed more still and a greater quietness fell with their absence.
And the three who remained, continued there motionless on their
knees--motionless, until, in the midst of the silence, came the
whispering of a tired voice--a voice, pronouncing with infinite
difficulty, one, single word,
"John--John."
John knelt quickly upright. He stretched out his hand and found a hand
to meet it, a hand that could not hold, that only lay in tender
submission upon his own.
"Father," he said; and that, after all, is the only word that a son can
say--father or mother--they are the last words left in the deepest heart
of a man. He utters them, incoherently almost, when emotion is choking
speech.
"Where is Jill?" the voice whispered again.
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