But here the reality of it all broke upon me--burst out with its
thundering sense of truth. Mad the blind beggar might be; yet there,
before my very eyes, in those motionless objects, was the secret of
perpetual motion. Rust, decay, change--the obstinate metal of the iron
rod, the flimsy substance of the tin pot, always under the condition of
change; rusting in his pocket where they had lain for fifteen
years--never quiescent, never still, always moving--moving--moving--in
obedience to the inviolable law of change, as we all, in servile
obedience to that law as well, are moving continually, from childhood
into youth, youth to middle-age--middle-age to senility--then death, the
last change of all. All this giant structure of manhood, the very
essence of complicated intricacy compared to that piece of rod iron,
passing into the dust from which the thousands of years had contrived to
make it. What more could one want of perpetual motion than that?
I looked up into his face again.
"You’ve taught me a wonderful lesson," I said quietly.
"Ah," he replied--"it’s all there--all there--the whole secret of it; if
only I had the eyes to put it together."
If he only had the eyes? Have _any_ of us the eyes? Have any of us the
eyes?
When he had finished, he folded it slowly and put it back in his pocket.
"Well----?" he said.
His heart was beating with anticipation, with apprehension, with
exaltation. With one beat he knew she must think it was good. It was
his best. He had just done it and, when you have just done it, you are
apt to think that. But with another beat, he felt she was going to say
the conventional thing--to call it charming--to say--"But how nice." It
would be far better if she said it was all wrong, that it struck a wrong
note, that its composition was ill. One can believe that about one’s
work--but that it is charming, that it is nice--never!
For that moment Destiny swung in a balance, poised upon the agate of
chance. What was she going to say? It all depended upon that. But she
was so silent. She sat so still. Mice are still when you startle them;
then, when they collect their wits, they scamper away.
Suddenly she rose to her feet.
"Will you be here in the Gardens to-morrow morning at this time," she
said--"Then I’ll tell you how very much I liked it."
CHAPTER X
THE NEED FOR INTUITION
In such a world as this, anything which is wholly sane is entirely
uninteresting. But--thank heaven for it!--madness is everywhere, in
every corner, at every turning. You will not even find complete sanity
in a Unitarian; in fact, some of the maddest people I have ever met have
been Unitarians. Yet theirs is an aggravating madness. You can have no
sympathy with a man who believes himself sane.
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