We stood for a minute at the edge of one of the long, sordid avenues
where a sordid life was surging up and down. Men, women, and children
of all races and nearly all ranks were hurrying to and fro, each bent on
an errand. It was the fact that life provided an errand for each of them
that suddenly struck me as the most wonderful thing in creation. There
was no one so young or so old, no one so ignorant or so alien, that he
was not going from point to point with a special purpose in view. Among
the thousands and the tens of thousands who would in the course of the
morning pass the spot on which we stood, there would probably not be one
who hadn’t dressed, washed, and breakfasted as a return for his daily
contribution to the common good. Never before and hardly ever since did
I have such a sense of life’s infinite and useful complexity. There was
no height to which it didn’t go up; there was no depth to which it didn’t
go down. No one was left out but the absolute wastrel like myself, who
couldn’t be taken in.
Though it was not a cold day, the steadiness of the drizzle chilled me.
The dampness of the pavements got through the worn soles of my boots,
and I suppose it did the same with Lovey’s. The lack of food made the
old man white, and that of drink set him to trembling. The fact that he
hadn’t shaved for the past day or two gave his sodden face a grisly look
that was truly appalling. Though the pale-blue eyes were extinct, as if
the spirit in them had been quenched, they were turned toward me with the
piteous appeal I had sometimes seen in those of a blind dog.
It was for me to take the lead, and yet I couldn’t wholly see in what
direction to take it. While I was pondering, Lovey made a variety of
suggestions.
“There doesn’t seem to be nothink for it, sonny, but to go and repent
for a day or two. I ’ate to do it; kind o’ deceivin’ like, it is; but
they’ll let us dry ourselves and give us a feed if we ’ave a sense of
sin.”
I wondered if he had in mind anything better than what I had myself.
“Where?”
He took the negative side first.
“We couldn’t go to the Saviour, because I’ve put it over on ’em twice
this year already. And the ’Omeless Men won’t do nothink for ye onless
you make it up in menial work.”
“I won’t try either of them,” I said, briefly.
“Don’t blame you, sonny, not a bit. Kind o’ makes a hypercrite of a man,
it does. I ’ate to be a hypercrite, only when I carn’t ’elp it.”
He went on to enumerate other agencies for the raising of the fallen, of
most of which he had tested the hospitality during the past few years.
I rejected them as he named them, one by one. To this rejection Lovey
subscribed with the unreasoning dislike all outcast men feel for the hand
stretched down to them from higher up. Nothing but starvation would have
forced him to any of these thresholds; and for me even starvation would
not work the miracle.
“What’s the matter with the Down and Out?” I sprang on him, suddenly.
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