Thou wilt remember one warm morn when winter Crept aged from the earth, and spring's first breath Blew soft from the moist hills; the black-thorn boughs, So dark in the bare wood, when glistening In the sunshine were white with coming buds, Like the bright side of a sorrow, and the banks Had violets opening from sleep like eyes. I walked with thee who knew'st not a deep shame Lurked beneath smiles and careless words which sought To hide it till they wandered and were mute, As we stood listening on a sunny mound To the wind murmuring in the damp copse, Like heavy breathings of some hidden thing Betrayed by sleep; until the feeling rushed That I was low indeed, yet not so low As to endure the calmness of thine eyes. And so I told thee all, while the cool breast I leaned on altered not its quiet beating: And long ere words like a hurt bird's complaint Bade me look up and be what I had been, I felt despair could never live by thee: Thou wilt remember. Thou art not more dear Than song was once to me; and I ne'er sung But as one entering bright halls where all Will rise and shout for him: sure I must own That I am fallen, having chosen gifts Distinct from theirs--that I am sad and fain Would give up all to be but where I was, Not high as I had been if faithful found, But low and weak yet full of hope, and sure Of goodness as of life--that I would lose All this gay mastery of mind, to sit Once more with them, trusting in truth and love And with an aim--not being what I am.