The confessions of a well-meaning womanMcKenna, Stephen
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The confessions of a well-meaning woman
McKenna, Stephen
English fiction -- 20th century; Upper class -- England -- Fiction; Women -- England -- Fiction
The difficulty was to know where to start. I couldn't commit myself,
I felt, by _one_ dinner, so when my Will came back... From the
north, yes. You knew that he was home? Oh, yes! Well, at the
moment he is not doing anything. The Morecambe experiment was _not_
a success; the place didn't suit him, and he didn't suit the place.
That is all I care to say on the subject. Half-truths are always
misleading; and I cannot tell you the full story, because I do not
know it. Should it not be enough to know that for days my spirit was
_crucified_? And the end is not yet... I have lost the thread...
Ah, yes. We dined _à trois_: Will and Mrs. Sawyer and I. She was
fascinating, magnetic. For the first time Will forgot all about the
odious clergyman's odious daughter... No, it slipped out. That
belongs to the unhappy Morecambe episode, and I really do not think
it very kind of you to keep trying to pump me when I have said I
prefer not to discuss it... When he returned after seeing her home,
Will wanted to know all about her, and in such a _way_... I mean, if
his voice and manner meant anything, they meant that he had met his
fate, as it were. I could tell him little. For one thing, I didn't
know; for another, his excitement had gone to my head, I saw ten
things at once and, breaking through them all, this splendid, untamed
creature with the flashing eyes walking side by side with my Will.
Such a contrast ... and _such_ a combination...
"Well, hadn't you better find out something about her?," said Will.
I promised to do my best, but one was sent from pillar to post in a
quite too ridiculous way. I _thought_ some one had told me she came
from Buenos Aires (perhaps it was only Major Blanstock's saying he
had met her on the boat coming home from there); I tried the
Argentine colony and the Legation, only to be referred to the
Brazilian Embassy; and there, though I am _sure_ they had never heard
of her, they were certain that she came from Peru. Until then, I had
never realized how many republics there were in South America; I went
from Colombia to the Argentine and from Ecuador to Chili.
_Invariably_ the first question was: "_What_ was her name before she
_became_ Mrs. Sawyer?" And that, of course, I did not know.
There is such a thing as _trop de zèle_, sometimes hardly
distinguishable from making oneself ridiculous...
"Surely," I said to Will, "our judgement of this person or that is a
better criterion than the bald (and perhaps inaccurate) statement
that a person was _born_ here and _married_ there. Connie Maitland
has asked us to shew some little kindness to our friend; and I am not
ashamed to confess that it seems _grudging_ to insist too much on
credentials. In a favourite phrase of your own, Will, she is "good
enough" for me; and, if any one says: "I met her at Lady Ann's," I
should be tempted to answer: "I hope you do not need a better
recommendation."
"I don't want to look a fool, that's all," said Will.
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