The Cornhill Magazine, (vol. XLI, no. 243 new series, September 1916)Various
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The Cornhill Magazine, (vol. XLI, no. 243 new series, September 1916)
Various
England -- Periodicals; English literature -- Periodicals; Short stories, English -- Periodicals
‘Ah! there you have me, Brownlow,’ he replied. ‘Lord Hartover is a
point upon which my lady’s confidences proved peculiarly obscure. She
spoke of her “dear George” with a great show of affection, deploring
that the festivities in celebration of his coming of age next month
must be postponed. She had so counted on seeing both you and me at
Hover then, she declared. Deploring, also’--and he looked rather hard
at me, I thought, across the corner of the dinner table over the row of
decanters, as he spoke--‘deploring also an unfortunate disposition in
her stepson to become enamoured of young women very much beneath him
in the social scale. She gave me to understand both she and his father
had been caused much annoyance and trouble by more than one affair
of this sort. Yet I could not help fancying she sought information,
just then, rather than offered it. I had a notion--I may have been
mistaken--she was doing her best to pump me and find out whether I had
heard anything from you upon the subject of these amatory escapades.
Come, Brownlow--for my instruction, not for hers--can you fill in the
gaps?’
I hesitated. Had the right moment come for explanation? I believed
that it had. And so, as plainly and briefly as I could, I told him the
whole story. I kept back nothing--why should I? There was nothing to be
ashamed of, though somewhat to grieve over, and much to regret. I told
him of Nellie, of Fédore; of Hartover’s love, Hartover’s marriage. I
told him of my own love.
For a while he remained silent. Then, laying his hand on my shoulder,
as I sat, my elbows upon the table, my face buried in my hands--
‘My poor fellow, my poor fellow--I had no notion of all this,’ he said.
‘So this is the upshot of your two years at Hover. I sent you out to
make your fortune, and you found your fate. Well--well--things are as
they are; but I do not deny that recently I had formed very different
plans for you.’
‘Do not think me presumptuous, sir, if I answer I feared as much. And
that is my reason for telling you what I have told no other human
being--what, indeed, I had hoped to keep locked inviolably in my own
breast as long as I live.’
Something in my tone or in my narrative must have stirred him deeply,
for he rose and took a turn up and down the room, as though with
difficulty retaining his composure. For my part, I own, I felt broken,
carried out of myself. It had been searching work, dislocating work, to
lay bare my innermost heart thus. But only so, as I judged, could the
mention of Alice Dynevor’s name be avoided between us. It was better to
sacrifice myself, if by so doing I could at once spare her and arrive
at a clear understanding. Of this I was glad. I think the Master was
glad too; for, his rather agitated walk ended, he stood beside me and
spoke most kindly.
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