The Cornhill Magazine (vol. XLI, no. 244 new series, October 1916)Various
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The Cornhill Magazine (vol. XLI, no. 244 new series, October 1916)
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England -- Periodicals; English literature -- Periodicals; Short stories, English -- Periodicals
But all these things were as yet hidden from Otto. Falloden and Constance
corresponded about them, in letters that anybody might have read, which
had behind them, nevertheless, a secret and growing force of emotion.
Even Mrs. Mulholland, who was rapidly endearing herself both to Constance
and Radowitz, could only guess at what was going on, and when she did
guess, held her tongue. But her relations with Falloden, which at the
beginning of his residence in the cottage had been of the coldest,
gradually became less strained. To his own astonishment, he found the
advice of this brusque elderly woman so important to him that he looked
eagerly for her coming, and obeyed her with a docility which amazed
himself and her. The advice concerned, of course, merely the small
matters of daily life bearing on Otto’s health and comfort, and when the
business was done Falloden disappeared.
But strangely amenable and even humble as he might appear in these
affairs to those who remembered his haughty days in college, for both
Constance and Mrs. Mulholland quite another fact emerged from their
experience of the cottage household during these weeks:—simply this—that
whatever other people might do or be, Falloden was steadily, and perhaps
unconsciously, becoming master of the situation, the indispensable and
protecting power of Otto’s life.
How he did it remained obscure. But Mrs. Mulholland at least—out of a
rich moral history—guessed that what they saw in the Boar’s Hill cottage
was simply the working out of the old spiritual paradox—that there is a
yielding which is victory, and a surrender which is power. It seemed to
her often that Radowitz was living in a constant state of half-subdued
excitement, produced by this strange realisation that he and his life
had become so important to Falloden that the differences of training
and temperament between them, and all the little daily rubs, no longer
counted; that he existed, so to speak, that Falloden might—through
him—escape the burden of his own remorse. The hard, strong, able man, so
much older than himself in character, if not in years, the man who had
bullied and despised him, was now becoming his servant, in the sense in
which Christ was the ‘servant’ of His brethren. Not with any conscious
Christian intention—far from it; but still under a kind of mysterious
compulsion. The humblest duties, the most trivial anxieties, where
Radowitz was concerned, fell, week by week, increasingly to Falloden’s
portion. A bad or a good night—appetite or no appetite—a book that Otto
liked—a visit that amused him—anything that for the moment contented
the starved musical sense in Otto, that brought out his gift, and his
joy in it—anything that, for the moment, enabled him to forget and
evade his injuries—these became, for Falloden also, the leading events
of his own day. He was reading hard for his Fellowship, and satisfying
various obscure needs by taking as much violent exercise as possible; but
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