these Vernons--what right had she to bring her sordid story into their
pleasant lives? Would they not suffer when it became known that they
had harboured, though unwittingly, one on whose head was set the price
of blood? What would be their judgment on her when they knew?
These were the thoughts which racked her as, in the pink room, she
sat, burning with shame, in the pretty frock, and hat, which Mrs
Vernon had bought her with money which she had supposed to be
Dorothy's, but which Dorothy herself knew was Mr Frazer's. Yesterday
he himself had bought her clothes across the counter; to-day he had
done it by deputy--yet she had not dared to tell his deputy the truth,
lest she should play him false. Looked at from any point of view,
could anything be more hideously false than her position? And without,
in the sunshine, on the grass, amid the flowers, were crowds of happy
people, with light hearts, clear consciences, who could look the whole
world in the face, knowing they had done no wrong; and Frances--the
friend whom she was using so ill--wanted to take her--a leper--into
that unsuspecting throng. And in the end she yielded, and
went--because that seemed to her to be the lesser evil. Frances made
it so clear that if she did not go she should think that Dorothy no
longer looked upon her as a friend. Rather than she should think that;
since many of the people had gone, and the rest were about to go; with
a sigh, whose meaning Frances wholly misunderstood, against her better
judgment, she suffered herself to be persuaded to show herself
outside.
"All I want you to do," Frances had reiterated, over and over again,
"is just to show yourself--if you love me, dear. No harm can possibly
come of that."
Which was all she knew. Dorothy was to learn that, in suffering
herself to be persuaded--because she loved, she had played the coward
again--more harm was to come of her just showing herself than she
might ever be able to undo.
Before quitting the pink room, Frances looked her over, as if she had
been a picture, and, as an artist might have done, gave her here and
there a finishing touch; expressing herself as only half satisfied
with the ultimate result.
"I've half-a-mind, do you know, young woman, to put a touch of colour
on your cheeks--a dab on each of them; because, though I won't deny
that pallor suits you, and even makes you fascinatingly interesting, I
don't want folks to think that you've met with a tragic fate beneath
this roof; or I shall have them nudging each other in the side; and
wondering to what cruel treatment you've been subjected; and eyeing me
askance, as if I must be the wretch. Don't you think you might manage
to wear, when you notice that people are looking at you, what I have
seen described, in print, as the ghost of a smile? It will anyhow let
them know that you've as much as the ghost of a smile left in you."
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