I had had my disgusts, if I may allow myself to-day such an expression;
but this was a supreme revolt. Certain things cleared up in my mind,
certain values stood out. It was all very well to have an unfortunate
temperament; there was nothing so unfortunate as to have, for practical
purposes, nothing else. I avoided George Gravener at this moment and
reflected that at such a time I should do so most effectually by leaving
England. I wanted to forget Frank Saltram—that was all. I didn’t want
to do anything in the world to him but that. Indignation had withered on
the stalk, and I felt that one could pity him as much as one ought only
by never thinking of him again. It wasn’t for anything he had done to
me; it was for what he had done to the Mulvilles. Adelaide cried about
it for a week, and her husband, profiting by the example so signally
given him of the fatal effect of a want of character, left the letter,
the drop too much, unanswered. The letter, an incredible one, addressed
by Saltram to Wimbledon during a stay with the Pudneys at Ramsgate, was
the central feature of the incident, which, however, had many features,
each more painful than whichever other we compared it with. The Pudneys
had behaved shockingly, but that was no excuse. Base ingratitude, gross
indecency—one had one’s choice only of such formulas as that the more
they fitted the less they gave one rest. These are dead aches now, and I
am under no obligation, thank heaven, to be definite about the business.
There are things which if I had had to tell them—well, would have stopped
me off here altogether.
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