She considered this remark an instant with her eyes on mine, and I
divined that it struck her I might possibly intend it as a reference to
some personal subjection to our fat philosopher, to some aberration of
sensibility, some perversion of taste. At least I couldn’t interpret
otherwise the sudden flash that came into her face. Such a
manifestation, as the result of any word of mine, embarrassed me; but
while I was thinking how to reassure her the flush passed away in a smile
of exquisite good nature. “Oh you see one forgets so wonderfully how one
dislikes him!” she said; and if her tone simply extinguished his strange
figure with the brush of its compassion, it also rings in my ear to-day
as the purest of all our praises. But with what quick response of fine
pity such a relegation of the man himself made me privately sigh “Ah poor
Saltram!” She instantly, with this, took the measure of all I didn’t
believe, and it enabled her to go on: “What can one do when a person has
given such a lift to one’s interest in life?”
“Yes, what can one do?” If I struck her as a little vague it was because
I was thinking of another person. I indulged in another inarticulate
murmur—“Poor George Gravener!” What had become of the lift _he_ had
given that interest? Later on I made up my mind that she was sore and
stricken at the appearance he presented of wanting the miserable money.
This was the hidden reason of her alienation. The probable sincerity, in
spite of the illiberality, of his scruples about the particular use of it
under discussion didn’t efface the ugliness of his demand that they
should buy a good house with it. Then, as for _his_ alienation, he
didn’t, pardonably enough, grasp the lift Frank Saltram had given her
interest in life. If a mere spectator could ask that last question, with
what rage in his heart the man himself might! He wasn’t, like her, I was
to see, too proud to show me why he was disappointed.
XI
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