She listened to the sound of these beautiful, sad words and repeated
them quietly:
“To love--and to die!”
And as she listened again, she heard him say:
“She loved--and she died.”
“What was the name of your first wife?” asked Elisaveta.
She was amazed at herself for uttering the word “first,” as there had
been only one; and her face became suffused slowly with pink.
Trirodov fell into thought; he appeared not to have heard her
question, and was silent. Elisaveta did not repeat it. He suddenly
smiled and said:
“You and I feel ourselves to be living people here, and what can there
be for us more certain than our life, our sensation of life? And yet
it is possible that you and I are not living people at all, but only
characters in a novel, and that the author of this novel is not at all
concerned with its external verisimilitude. His capricious imagination
had taken this dark earth for its material, and out of this dark,
sinful earth he grew these strange black maples and these mighty black
poplars and these twittering birds in the bushes and us.”
Elisaveta looked at him in astonishment and said with a smile:
“I hope that the novel will be interesting and beautiful. Let it even
end in death! But tell me, why do you write so little?”
With unexpected passion, almost with exasperation, Trirodov replied:
“Why should I write volumes of tales on how they fell in love and why
they fell out of love, and all that? I write only that which comes
from myself, that which has not yet been said. So much has already
been said; it is far better to add a simple word of one’s own than
write volumes of superfluities.”
“Eternal themes are always one and the same,” said Elisaveta. “Do they
not constitute the content of great art?”
“We never originate,” said Trirodov. “We always appear in the world
with a ready inheritance. We are the eternal successors. That is why
we are not free. We see the world with others’ eyes, the eyes of the
dead. But I live only when I make everything my own.”
* * * * *
And while these two spent their hours in conversing, Piotr usually
made his way somewhere to the top of the house. He sometimes descended
with his eyes red--red from tears or from the vigorous, high wind. His
days dragged on miserably. His hate and jealousy of Trirodov now and
again tormented him.
Piotr sometimes made unpleasant, pitiful scenes before Elisaveta. He
loved her and he hated her. He would have killed her--had he dared!
And he had not the force to hate either Elisaveta or Trirodov to the
bitter end.
When he learned to know Trirodov better his hate lost something of its
venom, his malice no longer irritated him like nettles. He looked with
curiosity upon them and began to understand. The agony of his
unconscious fury was replaced by a clear contemplation of the
separating abyss; and this made him even more miserable.
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