"You promised to marry me. I have your letter. I trusted you. If you
are going to leave me to face my shame alone, there is nothing for me
but death."
That saying of hers finished it; there was nothing for her but death.
Only it came a little sooner than she quite bargained for. Just at that
moment a train went thundering over the bridge towards town. As it went
a cloud must have parted, because, suddenly, the moon came out. It
shone upon us two. Louise looked up at me through the moonbeams.
Although she had been crying--and I never knew a woman's face which was
improved by tears--her prettiness, revealed, all at once, by the
moonlight, particularly struck me. She looked prettier even than when I
first saw her at the Coliseum. Her beauty went to my heart. She put her
hand upon my arm--a tiny hand it was.
"Reggie, has your love for me all gone? Don't you love me still?"
"Oh, yes," I said; "I love you still."
Then, putting my hands round her neck, I began to choke her. Hers was a
slender neck, so that I was able to put my hands right round and get a
good, firm grip. I don't think that at first she realised what I was up
to. She was thinking more of love than of death. At any rate she did
not attempt to scream. She looked to me as if she was startled. She
looked more startled as I increased the pressure. Appetite came with
eating. I had not altogether relished the business until I tackled it.
But, as I got a tighter and tighter hold, and felt her convulsive
writhings and her life slipping through my fingers, I began to feel the
joy of killing, for the killing's sake. I began to be filled with a
sort of ecstasy of passion--the sort of sensation which I had been in
search of when I joined the club. After all, it was worth feeling.
Lifting her up, I bent her backwards over the gate. She took longer to
die than I should have supposed. When she had ceased to move, and went
all limp in my grasp, I dropped her. My fingers were rigid with cramp.
For some seconds I could not move them. When I could, the pain was
excruciating. I found, too, that I was not only breathless, I was damp
with perspiration.
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