“There was a flurry in his head when he went to his office. He
didn’t know what his employer would say for stopping away. He
might blame him for being sick—he wondered would his employer pay
him for the weeks he was absent. When he stood at the door he was
frightened. Suddenly the thought of his master’s eye grew terrible
to him: it was a steady, cold, glassy eye; but he opened the door
and went in. His master was there with another man and he tried to
say ‘Good morning, sir,’ in a natural and calm voice; but he knew
that the strange man had been engaged instead of himself, and this
knowledge posted itself between his tongue and his thought. He
heard himself stammering, he felt that his whole bearing had become
drooping and abject. His master was talking swiftly and the other
man was looking at him in an embarrassed, stealthy, and pleading
manner: his eyes seemed to be apologising for having supplanted
him—so he mumbled ‘Good day, sir,’ and stumbled out.
“When he got outside he could not think where to go. After a while
he went in the direction of the little park in the centre of the
city. It was quite near and he sat down on an iron bench facing
a pond. There were children walking up and down by the water
giving pieces of bread to the swans. Now and again a labouring
man or a messenger went by quickly; now and again a middleaged,
slovenly-dressed man drooped past aimlessly: sometimes a tattered,
self-intent woman with a badgered face flopped by him. When he
looked at these dull people the thought came to him that they
were not walking there at all; they were trailing through hell,
and their desperate eyes saw none but devils around them. He saw
himself joining these battered strollers . . . and he could not
think what he would tell his wife when he went home. He rehearsed
to himself the terms of his dismissal a hundred times. How his
master looked, what he had said: and then the fine, ironical things
he had said to his master. He sat in the park all day, and when
evening fell he went home at his accustomed hour.
“His wife asked him questions as to how he had got on, and wanted
to know was there any chance of being paid for the weeks of
absence; the man answered her volubly, ate his supper and went to
bed: but he did not tell his wife that he had been dismissed and
that there would be no money at the end of the week. He tried to
tell her, but when he met her eye he found that he could not say
the words—he was afraid of the look that might come into her face
when she heard it—she, standing terrified in those dismantled
rooms...!
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