"She looked like an enraged animal, and my father must have been afraid
she would attack him, for he tried to soothe her and succeeded at last
in doing so. I think there was some mystery about her father and mother,
as she would never talk of them. Once I asked her about them, and she
said she hadn't any; and she looked so strange that I never asked her
again. I knew she was born South, that her people were poor, and her
name Harris, and that is all I know, except that no better or lovelier
woman ever lived, and if she is really crazy father made her so, and I
cannot feel any love for him, or respect. If I ever had any, and I
suppose I must have had, he killed it long ago. The first thing I
remember of him in Rome, where I was born, he was practising some music
with mother,--playing for her while she sang, and I was standing by him,
putting my hands on his arm and trying to hum the tune. With a jerk he
said to my nurse, 'Take her away and keep her away.'
"I am wicked, I know, to talk as I am doing, but it seems as if there
was a spell over me urging me to say things I never thought of saying.
It's a comfort to talk to some one who I know is my friend, and you are
so strong every way and have been so good to me."
She laid her head on Ruby's arm like a tired child, and continued, "I
wrote to mother very often after I came to Mayville, and she replied,
telling me how she missed me, and how she always fixed her eyes on some
part of the house, fancying she saw me, and was singing to me, and I
used to listen nights and think I heard her grand voice as it rose and
fell, and the people cheering, and she so beautiful standing there for
the crowd to gaze at, and wishing she could get away from it all.
"At last her letters ceased and father wrote that her mind had given way
suddenly;--that she was a raving maniac,--dangerous, I think he
said,--and I thought of the way she looked at him once when I was a
child, and he told me to ask her about her father. He said she was in
Dr. Haynes's private asylum, where she had the kindest of care. I think
I died many deaths in one when I heard that. I wrote her again and
again, and wanted to go to her, but my father forbade it. No one saw
her, he said, except her attendant and the physician,--not even himself,
as the sight of him threw her into paroxysms. I didn't wonder at that.
He sent my letters back, telling me she would not sense them, and they
would excite her if she did. Her only chance of recovery was in her
being kept perfectly quiet, with nothing to remind her of the past.
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