United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“Outlining your life as I imagine it—in a hazy sort of way. It has
never followed the even course of other girls of your class or you
wouldn’t be what you are. These upward curves and straight marks
represent abrupt changes and milestones. But that”—she pointed to the
last figure—“is more than a milestone. It represents a barrier that
shuts you off completely from your old life. It opened wide enough to
let you through but it is closed and sealed forever. You could not go
back if you wished, and I know that you wish nothing less. Behind that
barrier is a life you hate to remember. Before it, where you find
yourself now, are the pleasant places and all the most romantic girl
could have wished for, who was not too extravagant. Position, freedom,
an independent income, powerful and admiring friends, and the chance to
be stared at as an authentic beauty. Don’t you think you should change
with it? If you don’t you’re not as original as you look. Why! You’d be
merely commonplace, obstinate, content to go on being one thing all your
life. Don’t you know that the really intelligent woman these days crowds
as much variety into her life as life will permit? And adds as many
sides to her personality?”
“Ah!” Gita had turned pale. Her mouth was open and her nostrils
dilating, as if her heart were beating irregularly. “That is something I
never thought of. I do like change, and maybe I am obstinate—but I’m
not commonplace! . . . Perhaps the time _has_ come . . . anyhow I
promised my grandmother I’d let Mrs. Pleyden bring me out, and dress
like other girls. She was dying and had been very generous with me, and
I couldn’t help promising her. But she died a day or two later and I
hadn’t thought of it since. But of course I’ll have to keep my
promise—and I might as well begin now of my own free will,” she added
characteristically. “And if I really can’t look like a boy, what’s the
use? I suppose I’m too old for such nonsense anyhow. I used to feel a
lot older than I do now—and looked it, I imagine.” She shot an almost
apologetic glance at Elsie, who was beaming: she knew she had succeeded
where others had failed. “Reaction, I suppose, and I really never wore
such an ugly hat before. . . . But I won’t—and this is positive!—ever
marry, or even dance with men.”
“Oh, let the future take care of itself. I can think of nothing now but
of helping you buy frocks and hats in the New York shops. I know them
all—just where to go. Luckily the hat of the moment comes almost to the
bridge of the nose, and by the time fashion changes, your front and side
hair will have grown out. I’ll ask for my vacation now if you’ll really
start in right away to fit yourself out.”
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