The curse of Clifton : $b or, the widowed brideSouthworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
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The curse of Clifton : $b or, the widowed bride
Southworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
American fiction -- 19th century; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“Dear Frank—dearest Frank—I see that you know it all at last. Dearest
Frank, I have known it a long time. Now let us talk freely and
confidentially about it—let there be no more of that painful mist
between us as when you thought only of my restoration to health, and I
knew I was sinking fast into the grave.” She paused a moment, and then
said—“I want so much to comfort you. I have something to say to you.”
His fingers closed upon her hand convulsively. He choked down his
strong, rising emotion, and said—
“Do not try to talk, love, the effort will exhaust your strength.”
“No—no, it will not. I am not so weak as I was when you came in. Dearest
Frank, when you sit by me, and hold my hand, new life seems to run up my
feeble veins, and I feel stronger. Let me talk, love. Ah! do not look so
sad! It is better as it is, love. It is better I should go. I have
spoiled my own life, and should spoil yours if I should live. Ah, it is
a dreadful thing to occasion the death of any one! it is an awful thing
to cause the death of a father. I caused the death of the most loving
father that ever lived. And dearest Frank! though in the struggle, in
the bitterness of poverty, in the pangs of hunger and of cold, and in
the pain and debility of illness, the feeling of compunction has been
diverted, yet—had health returned with prosperity—remorse would then
have darkened all my life; and in ruining my happiness, would have
marred yours. Yes! I have spoiled my own life. It is well that I should
not live to spoil yours, dearest Frank! I talk not of expiation _now_.
Nothing that I could do or suffer, would alter the irrevocable past. We
have all one Redeemer—Jesus Christ the Righteous. So I talk not of
expiating the past; though perhaps if any heart is hardened against me,
my early death may soften it. But, let me speak of the future—_your_
future, dearest Frank, and let me say it is better for all your coming
years that I should die.”
“Oh, do not say so, Zuleime—you break my heart.”
“Dear Frank, you will grieve for me, I know you will, but be comforted.
You are so young yet. This sorrow will pass like a morning cloud, and
leave all your life a long bright day.” She paused abruptly—a gray
shadow swept darkly over her face and vanished. _He_ did not see it, his
face was buried in his hands. Then she asked to have her child brought
to her. Frank went out, but soon returned to say that little Fan had
been put to bed; and to ask her if the child should be waked up. “No, do
not wake the poor, little thing,” she said, and then added, “I am very,
very sleepy, Frank; dearest Frank, kiss my eyelids down to slumber like
you always do, and hold my hand till I fall asleep. Kiss my lips, too,
this time; kiss them last of all—there—good-night, love.” Her voice sank
away in a low, inaudible murmur, like a dying sound on the Eolian harp.
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