‘My wife, you fool! Now are you satisfied?’
Kirkdale dropped his hands suddenly. Travers walked over to the
looking-glass, settled his cuffs, and wiped his forehead. Then he
leaned his back against the mantelpiece and surveyed Kirkdale, who had
thrown himself into an armchair on the other side of the room. After a
pause he spoke.
‘I need not tell you, Kirkdale, that I have long foreseen this
situation: I knew we should have to come to an understanding sooner or
later.’
‘And you played your cards accordingly?’
‘There is no necessity to be so bitter about it. When a man has
absolutely nothing but his wits to rely upon, he must cultivate them.
Because I have acquired some skill in the marshalling of events, I
don’t see that you need reproach me. We all have our temptations. Your
father succumbed to the temptations of idleness, I to the temptations
of necessity. I was brought up rather more luxuriously than yourself,
for my father’s vices did not make him bad-tempered; your father’s did,
and that always has a chastening effect upon a man’s offspring. As I
was saying, no want of mine was denied until I was practically cast on
my own resources, just at the age when one’s tastes are most expensive.
I needn’t tell you what it means to be in a crack regiment with no
private income. I had not learnt how to make money as a middleman, or
by gambling on the stock exchange; the only resources open to me I took
advantage of and kept afloat for some time, then luck deserted me and
the crash came. I went abroad; I associated with men not fit to black
my boots. My life was a perfect hell. My God! how do you suppose a man
brought up as I have been can earn enough to keep him going in a way
that makes life worth living? One must have at least five thousand a
year. Where is it to come from?’
‘Oh, go to the devil!’
‘Precisely, that is the only answer to my question. I have been.’
Kirkdale rose and walked up and down the room impatiently. He snapped
his fingers.
‘I don’t care that for you. I am thinking of her.’
‘I don’t think that is at all a proper way to talk to a man about his
wife, my dear boy.’
‘Oh, damn!’
‘By all means.’
Kirkdale walked towards Travers, who looked him straight in the face.
After a prolonged stare they both burst out laughing.
‘O what fools we are! what fools we are!’ cried Kirkdale almost
hysterically, as he flung himself into a chair.
‘Well, that’s agreed; now let’s clear the ground before us. You are in
love with my wife; I am as much in love with her myself as the holy
estate of matrimony will permit a man to be. She is in love with me,
and not with you, unless I am very much deceived.’
‘Yes, yes. I had no hope of that kind. I don’t know if you can
understand or not, but I would do anything on earth to save her pain
and to make her life happy.’
‘The feeling does you honour, my dear boy. It is one often roused by
unrequited affection. A woman who does not love you is always an angel,
a woman who does is often a devil.’
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