He went first to the bureau, turned up its lamp, and taking out some
sheets of paper, marked on them directions for his various works;
for the statuette of Nell, he noted that it should be taken with his
compliments to Mr. Dromore. He wrote a letter to his banker directing
money to be sent to Rome, and to his solicitor telling him to let the
house. He wrote quickly. If Sylvia woke, and found him still away, what
might she not think? He took a last sheet. Did it matter what he wrote,
what deliberate lie, if it helped Nell over the first shock?
“DEAR NELL,
“I write this hastily in the early hours, to say that we are called
out to Italy to my only sister, who is very ill. We leave by the first
morning boat, and may be away some time. I will write again. Don't fret,
and God bless you.
“M. L.”
He could not see very well as he wrote. Poor, loving, desperate child!
Well, she had youth and strength, and would soon have—Oliver! And he
took yet another sheet.
“DEAR OLIVER,
“My wife and I are obliged to go post-haste to Italy. I watched you both
at the dance the other night. Be very gentle with Nell; and—good luck to
you! But don't say again that I told you to be patient; it is hardly the
way to make her love you.
“M. LENNAN.”
That, then, was all—yes, all! He turned out the little lamp, and groped
towards the hearth. But one thing left. To say good-bye! To her, and
Youth, and Passion!—to the only salve for the aching that Spring and
Beauty bring—the aching for the wild, the passionate, the new, that
never quite dies in a man's heart. Ah! well, sooner or later, all men
had to say good-bye to that. All men—all men!
He crouched down before the hearth. There was no warmth in that
fast-blackening ember, but it still glowed like a dark-red flower. And
while it lived he crouched there, as though it were that to which he was
saying good-bye. And on the door he heard the girl's ghostly knocking.
And beside him—a ghost among the ghostly presences—she stood. Slowly the
glow blackened, till the last spark had faded out.
Then by the glimmer of the night he found his way back, softly as he had
come, to his bedroom.
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