Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
He stood in a great Square and heard New York. Low, brittleness of
wagons, liquid hoof-blow of horses sweet against the opaque call of
drivers, beat of the herds of men driven by iron streets. High, murmur
of lamps wreathing with air that dropped like weight of sadness from the
sky: weary air, sinking to the City streets of its own helplessness, in
love with the warm lamps that turned away from such anguish. The
buildings hummed their tune of mastership. But these were low: was low
the plaint of the air that was being breathed and defiled by the herds
of men. Under all was the City: above all was the City’s voice. David
stopped still and heard it. A sudden, solitary shriek, coming from afar,
dying, born anew.... The City hurried and did not hear itself.
David walked again. The cry was gone. He was deaf also: doubting,
forgetful.
He walked to the house of the Tibbetts, where he was due to dinner. A
warm hall: carpeted stairs leading up like a schemer’s invitation:
balustrades that flourished and bold flat pictures that grimaced against
walls with the effrontery of servants. The door closed. David stood on
the thick carpet and felt the harsh mahoganous gleam, the cushioned
unresilience of chairs, the obtuse blindness of leathered walls. He felt
this Fay and her mother, how they were hard and soft: the black sleek
fatness of Mr. Tibbetts moved against him, held out wide hands to take
him in. A forbidding brutal gloss, like the woodwork, sheathed a
softness, a _give_ of sentiment and thought no more alive in these
people than the red plush of the sofa....
All of it was suddenly obscene to David. He was in the mood he had found
once in a house of prostitution: he had entered with a fellow from the
Office in stern response to passion: he had fled as one flees in a
nightmare. The Madame within the harsh green satin of her kimono, which
was a mold for flaccid flesh: the hard faces of the women, the hard
pastiche of their gestures upon which the flabbiness of their souls and
the unexercised pulp of their minds came out, oozed out--David caught
himself. What nonsense with these good friends asking him questions!
What had that memory to do with this? He walked deliberately into the
mood of the Tibbetts: he forgot his nausea, as he had forgotten the
voice of the City.
But Tom he could not forget. His forgetting all else brought him
inevitably to Tom. He was warm and alive with Tom. He felt that in Tom’s
friendship more than in all else--more than in his work downtown or the
slow reading of good books--he was growing up. He glowed with Tom as one
might smile at the accomplishment before one’s eyes of a good prophecy.
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