Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
One of the women tried to catch his eye. She was half nodding with drink
and disgust. A rotten night. David saw her examining herself in the
mirror. Her face was suddenly sweet. She opened her coat. She folded in
and downward the starched corners of her waist so that her neck showed
and the gap of her bosom. She looked up and smiled at David. She called
for more drink and beat her hand in supplement to her call against the
table. David left. Her flesh had sounded dead against the
shrill-varnished wood.
Tom was propped up with a book, in his black dressing-gown.
“Hello, Davie.” He looked up but did not move. “Have you read
_Gulliver’s Travels_ since you were a kid? Take my advice and do! How
that man Swift must have loved life to have hated men so!”
David thought this was nonsense. “What is there to hate in a thing we
love?”
Tom laughed. “You talk like a god, David. Are you a god? Hate does not
enter into love only where there is paradisal satisfaction. To what
mortal is that granted?” He watched David stand pensively, glowing. With
a searching smile: “Also hate may not enter where there is complete
delusion.” David started. “To have perfection in one’s love, one must be
a god. To have complete delusion one must be--an ass. Are you a god,
Davie?”
“Good night,” said David....
* * * * *
The following evening, he was not to be with her. She had so many
engagements. But she was going to break one so he could come, only three
evenings later.
Through three days David went, repeating to himself that he loved
Constance Bardale. Needful it was to his peace that he be persuaded of
this. Good it would be for the new hunger of his life--to spread forth,
make fresh dwellings for his spirit--if this was true. Yet all that had
occurred was sudden and strange. All this woman was remote. This was why
he had so fast retreated from Tom on that first night. Tom was very
real: in his light, the new fire in himself did not appear. He was sure
that he loved: a transfiguration had been made in him: the future of
Constance Bardale must in some inscrutable way be one with his. Yet he
could not talk of this joyous revelation to his best friend. Indeed,
with his best friend all of it was dim. He did not solve the strangeness
of this. He said to himself: “It is all too mysterious yet to be spoken
of. Tom would not believe me. He would ask me what had happened to make
me know.” Had David these three days seen Cornelia, he could have
spoken. He did not know this since he had no plan to see Cornelia. He
remained with his secret. Wondering, trying to wonder about it, his
thoughts reeled in a dance with his upstarting senses. He could not even
clearly wonder about it all.
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