Male friendship -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
She knew she might have. Had she said: “David, you are far away. What is
between us? David, look really into my words, look really into me. Don’t
you see how I suffer when you remain outside?” David would have come to
her indeed, like the half-tamed, clumsy cub he was, into her arms and
begged for forgiveness. But that could not be. So Cornelia, also, was
pleasantly removed for David. And this was good, since then he could
read into the picture those details he liked: delete the others.
It was the same with Business. It was always so with Business when one
so wanted it. David discovered that Business was more like a woman than
he had discovered women: in its reticence, in its immediate response to
his desire, either to be all taken up and quick with it, or to be left
spiritually alone. He found as his moods veered and alternated, so
followed what he could give to his affairs downtown. If he was full of
energy to spill and full of fancies to weave, Business was a romantic
game that grappled him and spent him. Mr. Barlow had taught him that.
But if he was misty and gray and low, Business became a habit exercise
that barely held his mind, unobtrusive and gray like his own forces. And
without disaster. He could plunge into it, work upon it with every
muscle of his body. Or he could hold aloof and run it with two
disdainful fingers. He could thrust eyes upon it close, and have joy of
its jungle of tropic passions, or poise it philosophically from afar, as
a flat patch in his life where he grew his bread-and-butter. Now he was
holding it endearingly aloof. It was an accommodating thing that used up
just enough of his time and energy to leave him peaceful and ruminant at
night.
Even Tom was away. He was gone West on business. David did not write. He
made no effort to touch the actual departed friend. He dwelt with his
own vision of Tom, unhampered now in his deep will to find it altogether
perfect. For the nonce, this wearing struggle to hold it perfect was
over. This Tom in his mind had no unfitting angles. Nor the Tom
abstractly speaking to him from afar.
That morning, he had received a letter. It read:
_Greetings, dear friend_:
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