The Days of My Life: An AutobiographyOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Days of My Life: An Autobiography
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret), 1828-1897
This simple and unpremeditated appeal overpowered me. I leaned down my
cheek upon hers, and put my arms round her, and no longer tried to
control myself. She was alarmed at this outbreak, which was almost as
violent as the former one in my own room, and when she had soothed me a
little, she ran upstairs and came down breathless with some
eau-de-cologne and water in a little china basin, and bathed my forehead
with a dainty little handkerchief, and put back my hair and smoothed it
as if she had been my nurse, and I a child. Then she wanted me to lie
down, and conducted me tenderly upstairs for that purpose--when,
however, I only put my dress in order for dinner, and went down again.
My husband encouraged her happy talk while we sat at table, and she told
him, "Cousin Hester had been a little nervous, and was so very sad, and
could he tell her what to do, to amuse her cousin?" For my own part, I
did not dare to meet his eye. Not only my own agitation, but the natural
and happy life interposed between us in the person of this simple girl,
made it a very great struggle for me to maintain my composure and
self-control.
When we returned to the drawing-room, Flora drew her footstool to the
fireside again, and sat down at my feet and told me of all her pleasant
ways and life at home. Then she rose suddenly. "Would you like me to
sing, cousin Hester? I cannot sing very well, you know; but only simple
songs, and papa likes to hear me, at this time, before the lights come.
Shall I sing? would it amuse you, cousin Hester?"
"Yes, Flora," I said; she asked no more, but went away in her simplicity
to the piano. Then while the evening darkened I sat by the fire which
burned red and warm, but sent only a fitful variable glow into the
corners of the room, listening to the young voice, as sweet and clear as
a bird's, singing song after song for my pleasure. They went to my
heart, these simple words, these simple melodies, the pure affectionate
sincerity of the singer, who never once thought of herself. I bowed
myself down by the fire and hid my face in my hands, and in perfect
silence, and strangely subdued and softened, wept quiet tears out of a
full heart. She was still going on, when I became aware in an instant of
another step beside me, and some one stooped over me, and kissed the
hands which hid my face, and kissed my hair. My heart leaped with a
violent start and throb; I looked up and raised myself on my chair. My
husband had joined us! Flora perceived him, and I had but time to dry my
wet eyes, when lights were shining in the cheerful room; and the music,
and the charm, and this touch which once more had nearly startled me
back into the natural woman, had vanished like the wintry twilight, and
I was once more calm, grave, languid, the resentful, cloudy, reserved
Mrs. Southcote, such a one as I had been ever since the first night when
I was brought to Cottiswoode.
THE NINTH DAY.
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