The Days of My Life: An AutobiographyOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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The Days of My Life: An Autobiography
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret), 1828-1897
"I flatter myself, I am Hester's oldest friend," he said, "and we have
quarrelled in our day. She had many disadvantages in her childhood. She
wanted a mother's hand; but I always did justice to her noble qualities.
Hester is--well, she is more my own child than any one else ever can be.
I feel as if I had found her again--and she is--"
"I am here, Mr. Osborne," cried I--"oh, don't, don't; you only humiliate
me when you praise me!"
For there was he sitting silent while I was commended, hearing about my
youth, and perhaps smiling at it bitterly in his heart. It struck me
down to the very dust to be commended before him; I would rather have
been blamed, for then the unconscious comparison which I always supposed
him making between what he knew and what he heard would have been less
to my disadvantage. Mr. Osborne did not know how his kind word and the
affectionate tone which even now touched my heart, and would have made
me very grateful under any other circumstances, wounded and abased me
now.
When I spoke, my husband raised his head, and threw a furtive glance at
me--what could he be thinking? I shrank before his eye, as if I had been
practising some guilty act, as if I had conspired with Mr. Osborne to
insinuate to him that he had not sufficient regard for me.
"_I_ praise you, Hester! did you ever hear me?" said Mr. Osborne,
smiling; "I was but telling Miss Ennerdale how you exhibited your baby
to-day; and your young cousin, Hester, is not to be moved out of the
opinion that your boy is the _beau-ideal_ of boys--my dear child," he
said, suddenly lowering his voice, and coming to take a seat beside me,
"she is very like your mother."
"Will you sing to Mr. Osborne, Flora?" said I. "I think she is very
like my mother, indeed, and she is very happy, and will be very happy;
there is no cloud coming to her."
He shook his head, but was silent, as Flora began to sing. My husband
took a book, but I know he did not read a word of it. He sat listening
as I did to some of those velvety drawing-room love-songs, which Flora
had purely because they were "the fashion," and some others of a better
kind, which the girl's own better taste had chosen. Mr. Osborne did not
admire them as I did. He shook his head again slightly, and said, "A
very good girl--a very good girl," as Flora's sweet young voice ran over
verse after verse to please him. "That is not like your mother, Hester,"
he said; but it was Mr. Osborne that was changed, it was not the music.
He had been no connoisseur in the old days.
When Flora closed the piano it was nearly time to go to rest--and I was
very glad to find it so. My husband and I were left last in the room
when our visitors had retired--and when I went to bid him good night, he
took my hand in both of his and put it to his forehead and his lips. I
was very much agitated--I faltered out, "Have you anything to say to
me?" I could find no other words, and he said, "No--no, nothing but good
night."
THE EIGHTH DAY.
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